Lyrics
I was fourteen you were fifteen by just a few months you'd remind me
I, at fourteen, and the speaker, at fifteen with a small age gap, shared a connection that is remembered.
I still think of you the same I did that day
The speaker's feelings for the other person remain unchanged since the mentioned day.
When I was eighteen you were nineteen yeah I was leaving you wouldn't find me
When the speaker turned eighteen, the other person was nineteen, and the speaker was leaving, making it challenging to feel good alone without the other's presence.
I couldn't feel good alone unless I knew that you would stay
The speaker needed assurance that the other person would stay for them to feel good alone.
You grew your hair out just to spite me; I was a nuanced sort of frightening
The other person grew their hair out to spite the speaker, who was complex and somewhat frightening.
Kept thinking that everything you did came back to me
The speaker felt that everything the other person did was somehow connected to them.
Do you wish I had stayed
The speaker wonders if the other person wishes they had stayed.
Or gone away
Alternatively, the speaker questions if the other person is glad they are gone.
Wait and you will find me, I barely even paused it felt so frightening
Waiting is mentioned, with the speaker not pausing, and the experience is described as frightening.
I barely even thought it out, pretending I see things clearly
The speaker didn't carefully consider or think through things, pretending to have clarity.
But now we'll wait, move on, get on, get over
Now, there's a resolution to wait, move on, and get over the past.
I couldn't stay awake, you couldn't stay here sober
The speaker couldn't stay awake, and the other person struggled to remain sober.
I watched you move along, you watched yourself float right through me
The speaker observed the other person moving on, while the other person felt detached from the speaker.
But now it's all coming back to me
Memories and feelings are resurfacing for the speaker.
The way you want I just couldn't need
The other person's desires conflicted with what the speaker could provide.
The way you left I would never leave
The way the other person left was not how the speaker would have departed.
You asked me please
The other person asked the speaker for something.
Did I forget about those two straight years you spent with me
Reference to two years spent together, suggesting a shared history.
In the electric fields between our parent's streets maybe
The connection between the speaker and the other person is described in terms of electric fields between their parents' streets.
That's when I knew you'd go to war for me
The realization that the other person would go to war for the speaker.
When I found you there were scars where sunspots used to be
Upon finding the other person, there were visible scars where there used to be sunspots.
But I had licked myself a spotless clean I think
The speaker managed to clean themselves of scars, attempting to hide, but the other person noticed.
I tried to hide but you'd seen
The speaker acknowledges being seen by the other person.
There was no fight there in me
There was no fight left in the speaker.
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