Lyrics
I said I want to be this way
I express a desire to remain in my current state or condition.
And I never wanted to feel this way
I never wished to experience the emotions I am currently feeling.
Beat down and broken
Feeling defeated and emotionally shattered.
If I could get away some time
If there's a chance, I would escape from this situation.
Take it all above my mind
Completely detach from my thoughts and worries.
Maybe find myself again
In the process, I hope to rediscover my true self.
Shoot it in my veins
Using substances to cope with pain, possibly metaphorical.
Trying to take away this pain
Attempting to numb the pain and suffering.
Maybe find myself along the way
Seeking personal discovery during this journey.
Nothing left to lose I'm on my way
Having nothing to lose, I am determined to move forward.
'Cause I realized you're too late
Realizing that someone or something important is no longer available.
Syphilic (?) retribution
Reference to a possibly misspelled word, unclear meaning (Syphilic retribution).
If I could get away some time
Reiteration of the desire to escape from the current situation.
Take it all above my mind
Repeat of the idea to distance oneself from thoughts and worries.
Maybe find myself again
Reaffirmation of the hope to rediscover one's true self.
Shoot it in my veins
Continued use of substances to cope with emotional pain.
Trying to take away this pain
Persisting in the attempt to numb the pain and suffering.
Maybe find myself along the way
Continued search for self-discovery during the journey.
Gotta try and find another way
Expressing the need to find an alternative path or solution.
Before it is too late
Emphasizing the urgency of finding a solution before it's too late.
Beat down and broken
Reiteration of feeling defeated and emotionally shattered.
If I could get away some time
Repeating the desire to escape from the current situation.
Take it all above my mind
Repeating the idea of detaching from thoughts and worries.
Maybe find myself again
Reaffirming the hope to rediscover one's true self.
Shoot it in my veins
Continued use of substances to cope with emotional pain.
Trying to take away this pain
Persisting in the attempt to numb the pain and suffering.
Maybe find myself along the way
Continued search for self-discovery during the journey.
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