Ink Poisoning
Inner Turmoil: Silent Battles & Dormant Wishes
Lyrics
So I kick shit on a kickflip
Engaging in skateboarding tricks, specifically a kickflip.
Now my legs are bruised and cut
Resulting in physical injuries like bruises and cuts on the legs.
So I'll drip blood on the dorm floor
Expressing pain by allowing blood to drip on the dormitory floor.
Pretty good at opening up
Skilled at emotionally opening up or being vulnerable.
Though I'd never get violent
Despite proficiency in emotional expression, avoiding violence.
But sometimes when I'm driving
Struggling with inner turmoil, especially while driving.
I can't deal with my favorite noise
Unable to cope with a particular noise, opting for silence.
So I decide to keep it silent
Choosing to keep silent to deal with emotional challenges.
So who am I these days, do I get a say
Reflecting on personal identity and agency in current circumstances.
Or is it trapped up in my trauma and my DNA
Questioning whether personal traits are influenced by trauma and DNA.
and will I change to someone different when I move away
Contemplating potential changes in identity with a move.
Do I have a chance to stay the same
Uncertainty about maintaining one's essence amid change.
I can't get away from you
Feeling unable to distance oneself from a significant influence.
My inner eyelid tattoo
Symbolic reference to a lasting, internal mark or memory.
I see you when I try to sleep
Encountering thoughts of the influential figure during sleep.
It's not often but still, you see
Infrequent but persistent presence of the influential figure.
We used to coast trying to take it slow
Recalling a past time of taking things slowly and comfortably.
Never overflow then my lips went cold
Unexpectedly experiencing emotional detachment or numbness.
Trying to make the most of this overdose
Attempting to make the most of a challenging situation or emotion.
I suppose like a ghost
Comparing oneself to a ghost, perhaps feeling intangible or detached.
Radio trip to the furthermost West coast
Narrating a radio journey to the farthest West coast.
I wish you would give me a reason to be
Expressing a desire for a reason to be happy.
So god damn unhappy
Feeling extremely unhappy without apparent reasons.
I can't get on with the lack of reasons not to feel so shabby
Struggling with discontent and a lack of reasons for it.
You could change the way
Addressing the potential to change one's perspective.
I look at the blue
Referencing the influence of the person's eyes on the speaker's perception.
In your eyes
Feeling unable to escape the influence of the significant person.
I can't get away from you
Reiteration of the persistent impact on the speaker.
My inner eyelid tattoo
Repeating the imagery of an inner eyelid tattoo, emphasizing permanence.
I see you when I try to sleep
Recurrence of thoughts about the influential figure during sleep.
It's not often but still, you see
Acknowledging infrequent but consistent thoughts about the person.
I wish you
Expressing a wish for a specific action from the influential figure.
Would break my heart
Repeating the desire for the person to break the speaker's heart.
I wish you would break my heart again
Expressing a paradoxical desire for emotional pain.
So I kick shit on a kickflip
Revisiting the theme of engaging in skateboarding and its consequences.
Now my legs are bruised and cut
Reiterating physical consequences of skateboarding activities.
So I'll drip blood on the dorm floor
Continuing the imagery of blood on the dorm floor.
Pretty good at opening up
Reiterating proficiency in emotional openness.
Though I'd never get violent
Reemphasizing a commitment to non-violence despite emotional struggles.
But sometimes when I'm driving
Recalling challenges in dealing with a favorite noise while driving.
I can't deal with my favorite noise
Choosing silence as a coping mechanism for emotional challenges.
So I decide to keep it silent
Reiterating the decision to keep silent in the face of emotional difficulty.
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