Lyrics
As a child I saw you glow
Reflecting on a positive image of someone in their childhood.
Didn't realize you'd never know
Realizing that the person being reflected upon will never be aware of the admiration.
As the world tore you down
Describing the impact of the world breaking down the person being talked about.
You've become hollow
Expressing that the person has become emotionally empty or hollow.
But as I grew
Growing up and gaining understanding.
I learned what it's like
Learning about the challenges of being a girl in a society with specific beauty standards.
To be a girl in a world
Highlighting the societal expectations and stereotypes for girls.
That has a type
Referring to the existence of a predefined ideal type of girl in society.
Smaller waist, bigger chest
Enumerating physical attributes associated with the societal ideal.
Sucking in, so you look the best
Describing the pressure to conform to physical standards through practices like body-sucking.
Body checking is routine
Making a routine of scrutinizing and assessing one's own body.
Judged myself since fourteen
Expressing self-judgment since the age of fourteen.
I glance upon myself
Glimpsing at oneself.
My reflection is warped
Describing a distorted reflection, like in a funhouse mirror.
Like a funhouse mirror
Expressing the feeling of drowning in dysmorphic thoughts.
Dysmorphic, I drown
Referencing the impact of dysmorphia on sexuality and self-love.
My sexuality, my self love
Describing corruption in sexuality and self-love at the age of 21.
Corrupted at 21
Accusing someone of taking something precious without permission.
You took a bite of what's not yours
Conveying emotional numbness after an invasion of personal boundaries.
And left me feeling numb
Emphasizing the control dysmorphia has over the person.
Dysmorphia takes control
Setting boundaries against unwanted physical contact and attention.
Do not touch me, do not look
Expressing resistance against being dissected or scrutinized.
Dying to open me up
Desiring to resist external interference and maintain personal integrity.
I'm not your fucking book
Rejecting the idea of being an open book for others.
Dysmorphia takes control
Reiterating the impact of dysmorphia on control and boundaries.
Do not touch me, do not look
Repeating the resistance against unwanted attention and scrutiny.
Dying to open me up
Reiterating the desire to maintain personal boundaries.
I'm not your fucking book
Emphasizing the rejection of being treated as an open book.
My sexuality, my self love
Echoing the impact of dysmorphia on sexuality and self-love.
Corrupted at 21
Repeating the corruption of sexuality and self-love at 21.
You took a bite of what's not
Reiterating the violation of personal boundaries by someone.
Yours
Stating the emotional aftermath of the violation.
And left me feeling numb
Expressing emotional numbness following the violation.
Dysmorphic, I drown
Repeating the feeling of drowning in dysmorphic thoughts.
Dysmorphic, I drown
Further emphasizing the drowning sensation in dysmorphia.
Dysmorphic, I
Concluding with a repetition of the drowning theme in dysmorphia.
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