A Fool's Game
A Dance with Shadows: Navigating Life's Tangled Emotions
Lyrics
I make a tally on my body
I keep track of my mistakes and regrets on my body
For the times I've hurt
Reflecting on the times when I've caused pain
I know I'm lucky, given time
Despite my fortunate circumstances, the scars of my past linger over time
They wash away
These scars gradually fade away
But the ones that remain, I know
Some mistakes persist, acknowledging my lowest moments
I've been at my worst
Acknowledging that I've been through difficult phases
I know they'll stay
These challenging experiences will endure
I know I need it but I don't want it
Recognizing a need for something, but not desiring it
Does that make me insane?
Questioning if this reluctance makes me insane
Or does it make me an addict or an idiot?
Considering whether it labels me as an addict or an idiot
I know what my parents would say
Aware of what my parents might say about my choices
And I feel like a slave to myself
Feeling trapped, enslaved by my own actions
And I can't break away
Unable to break free from this internal struggle
And I hold onto that faint glimpse of hope
Clutching onto a faint glimmer of hope despite the challenges
With each passing day
Hope persists with each passing day
It's a fool's game I play
Recognizing that the choices I make are a foolish game
And I can't hold it much longer
Feeling the inability to endure the current situation
I can't stand up if I can't be stronger
Unable to stand firm without becoming stronger
All I need is a place where I can learn to love again
Seeking a place to rediscover love and heal
If that's in you, treat me the way I treated you
Suggesting that if love exists in the other person, treat me as I treated them
So what defines me? Is it you?
Contemplating whether my identity is defined by someone else or my actions
Or the footprints I leave behind?
Questioning if my worth is in my relationships or my impact on the world
Is it what we made or the things I've done?
Considering if my true self is shaped by relationships or my deeds
You know I'm searching for an answer
Expressing a search for answers in a cold and lonely place
In a cold and lonely place
Seeking understanding in difficult circumstances
And I know that I'll break
Acknowledging an inevitable breaking point in the future
It's a matter of time
Recognizing that this breaking point is a matter of time
And of what you'll do
Highlighting the significance of both time and actions in the impending outcome
But I'll still play your fool
Despite the impending consequences, continuing to play the role of a fool
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