Lyrics
We were playing kickball in the summer
We engaged in a game of kickball during the summer
When you first learned my name
This is when you first became aware of my name
In the parking lot of the Catholic school
The setting was the parking lot of a Catholic school where boys were misbehaving
Where the boys misbehaved
Highlighting the environment where the initial interaction took place
I didn't wanna call home to my mother no I
I chose not to inform my mother and asked my teammates to wait instead
Just told my teammates to wait
Coping with discomfort, I removed asphalt from my kneecaps until my nerves settled
Picked the asphalt out of my kneecaps until
Describing a physical action to calm nerves
All my nerves went away
Expressing nervousness or hesitation
Guess I
Indicating uncertainty or doubt
I guess I never had it in me
Reflecting on a perceived lack of capability or potential
Was trying so hard to be happy
Struggling to attain happiness
Thought you were everything I wanted
Believing you were the ideal partner but realizing it was challenging
But then it should've been so easy
Expressing the expectation that it should have been easier
Threw an end of the year party
Recalling an end-of-year celebration hosted at my parents' home
Back at my parents' house
You departed early for a friend's farewell without my mentioning it
You left early for some friend's going away
Highlighting a lack of communication regarding your early departure
And I never mentioned it
An event or action left unacknowledged
I told you green was my favorite color
I falsely claimed green as my favorite color to create a connection
Just so that we'd be the same
Seeking commonality to avoid causing trouble
Never wanted to cause any trouble
An intention to avoid conflict or disturbance
Until the seasons changed
Until circumstances or feelings changed
Guess I
Reiterating a lack of perceived capability
I guess I never had it in me
Continuing to struggle for happiness
Was trying so hard to be happy
Perceiving difficulty in achieving contentment
Thought you were everything I wanted
Repeating the belief that you were the ideal, but it wasn't easy
But then it should've been so easy
Expressing the expectation that it should have been easier
Guess I
Reiterating the sense of inadequacy
I guess I never had it in me
Persisting in the effort to find happiness
Was trying so hard to be happy
Struggling to overcome personal limitations
Thought you were everything I wanted
Believing you were the key to happiness but facing difficulties
But then it should've been so easy
Expressing the expectation that it should have been easier
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