Mine
Regrets of Vulnerability
Lyrics
I've always wanted a family
I've always desired to have a family.
I was willing to wait
I was patient and willing to wait for the right time.
But then you tried to force it out of me
However, you tried to push and rush the idea of a family.
And I didn't know better than to think
I was naive and didn't realize better than to believe in your urgency.
See, I was too caught up in the moment
I was too engrossed in the present moment.
And your words and body lured me in
Your words and physical presence were enticing, drawing me in.
Now I'm left having to face those indiscretions
Now, I'm left dealing with the consequences of those indiscretions.
Wondering where all my decency went
Reflecting on where my sense of decency went.
I wanted to be vulnerable and I think you did too
I wanted to be open and vulnerable, and I believe you did too.
So I'm sure it was just a matter of time
It was just a matter of time before regretting giving myself completely to you.
Before I'd regret giving all of myself to you
Regretting giving away things that should have remained mine.
Things that should have still been mine
Expressing a sense of loss for what should have still been mine.
Should have still been mine
Reiteration of the loss and ownership of what should have been preserved.
I wanted someone who could know me
I desired a connection where someone truly understands me.
And you seemed to have that empathy
You initially seemed to possess that empathetic connection.
Well turns out that was more of a façade
Later realizing that it was more of a facade than genuine empathy.
But we still have more in common than you might think
Despite differences, acknowledging common brokenness between both individuals.
See, I think that we're both deeply broken
An acknowledgment of mutual emotional struggles.
And I toiled to help make you feel loved and mend
I made efforts to make you feel loved and healed.
But man there's problems there that I worked too damn hard to fix
However, there are unresolved issues that I worked hard to fix.
That made you too scared to commit
These unresolved problems created fear, hindering commitment.
I feel the hardest part is looking back
The most challenging part is reflecting on the past.
And after everything, figuring out why I stayed
After everything, questioning why I stayed.
Trying to convince myself it was anything other than
Trying to convince myself it was anything other than the truth.
That I honestly thought you were in love with me
Initially believing you were genuinely in love with me.
Now I think you were more in love with your own senses
Realizing that your love may have been more self-centered.
Or the kind of love you find in magazines
Comparing the love to a superficial, magazine-style portrayal.
The kind you wont get just by latching on to someone new
Emphasizing that such love can't be attained by simply attaching to someone new.
Without humanity getting in the way
Highlighting the interference of humanity in genuine love.
I wanted to be vulnerable and I think you did too
Reiteration of the desire for vulnerability from both sides.
So I'm sure it was just a matter of time
Anticipating the regret of giving too much of oneself.
Before I'd regret giving all of myself to you
Anticipating the regret of giving away things that should have remained mine.
Things that should have still been mine
Reflecting on the loss of things that should have still been mine.
Should have still been mine
Reiteration of the lament for things that should have remained mine.
Should have still been mine
Final expression of the lament for the things that should have been preserved.
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