Up in Smoke
Embers of Regret: Love's Unraveling Journey
Lyrics
Stuck in the deep end
Feeling stuck in a challenging situation or circumstance.
No exits, I'm speeding
Unable to find a way out, rushing forward without a clear exit.
Feels like I'm drowning
Experiencing a sense of suffocation or overwhelming pressure.
If I sit still for too long
Fearing negative consequences if remaining inactive for too long.
You're worn and you're ragged
Describing a worn and exhausted state.
Eyes burnt out like matchsticks
Comparing tired eyes to burnt-out matchsticks.
You've been retracing your steps
Reflecting on past actions, retracing one's steps in an attempt to find a way home.
Trying to find your way home
Struggling to find a sense of direction or purpose.
But you don't even know where that is anymore
Expressing a loss of familiarity with one's own identity or goals.
And you don't even know what you're searching for
Feeling uncertain and confused about the search for meaning.
I know that I messed up
Acknowledging personal mistakes or errors.
I know you know it too
Recognizing that the listener is aware of the mistakes made.
But I promise I only had the best intentions
Assuring that actions were motivated by good intentions.
When it came to you
Expressing a commitment to the well-being of the listener.
Thought that a clean break would be easier to heal
Believing that a clean break would be easier for healing.
But I still see your face
Despite the break, memories of the person are still vivid.
And I still feel your touch
The emotional impact of the person's touch is still felt.
And I hear things I don't want to hear
Hearing unwanted and distressing things.
And in that silence I realize what I actually fear
Realizing fears and anxieties in moments of silence.
Now I can't meet my eyes when I look in the mirror
Avoiding one's own reflection due to guilt or shame.
Would you take my word if it meant nothing?
Pondering whether words have lost significance.
Would you come back if I said I'm sorry?
Questioning if an apology would bring back the person.
No you won't
Anticipating a negative response to the apology.
How come everything I love always goes up in smoke?
Expressing a pattern of losing everything beloved.
And I know it's my fault but I can't let you go
Acknowledging personal responsibility for the losses.
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