Lyrics
I'm sick of wondering
I'm tired of pondering
Of what it could've been
Reflecting on what might have been
Oh shit it's time to move along
An abrupt realization that it's time to move forward
Add up the time I spent
Calculating the time invested
Bitching to all my friends
Complaining to my friends about it
I'm sorry that it took this long
Expressing regret for the delay
I'm glad to see that you're happy
Observing your happiness
But it bums me out that it's not with me
Feeling disheartened that it's not shared with me
And when I see you smiling
Associating your smile with my past
I'll think of where I've been
Reflecting on my own journey
And it's just me, all alone
Emphasizing personal solitude
I still felt something there
Noticing lingering emotions
So scared it wouldn't leave
Fearing these emotions won't fade away
Thought I'd go and do something wrong
Contemplating making mistakes to escape
But then when I found out
Discovering better possibilities
How much better things could be
Realizing improvement for both
For the both of us don't you see
I'm glad to see that you're happy
Feeling disheartened again
But it bums me out that it's not with me
Linking happiness to the absence of my presence
And when I see you smiling
Associating your smile with my past once more
I'll think of where I've been
Reflecting on my own journey again
And it's just me
Emphasizing personal solitude again
All alone
But it's not like myself to give into misery
Denying succumbing to misery
So I did it all with good company
Choosing positive companionship
It's time to drink it in
Embracing the present moment
Fuck everything I felt back then
Rejecting past negative emotions
I'd rather go and just be me
Preferably being true to oneself
Hey fuck you I'm so happy
Asserting personal happiness
And I am the person that I want to be
Affirming self-identity
And when you see me smiling
Linking your perception of me to my past
You'll think of where I've been
Reflecting on my journey with a positive outlook
And you'll just be
Leaving you in solitude
All alone
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