Lyrics
I don't know if you know it I lost my mind
The speaker expresses uncertainty about their mental state and acknowledges a sense of losing control.
When they ask if I'm crying it's some in my eye
The speaker clarifies that tears may be misinterpreted as a sign of weakness when, in reality, there is something in their eye.
I done had them nights way to many times
The speaker reflects on experiencing difficult nights frequently.
I don't know if I'm living to die or I'm dying to live
Existential contemplation: the speaker questions whether they are living with a purpose or merely surviving.
I don't like outside catch me in the crib
The speaker prefers staying indoors, possibly to avoid external challenges or dangers.
You don't know how it feel get a call that your man doing a bid and you won't see him for Some years
The speaker narrates the emotional impact of receiving news about a friend going to prison for years.
Think bout the time dat my mother had called my phone like sorry but gloxko died
Recollection of a painful moment when the speaker learned about a friend named Gloxko's death from their mother.
And that shit hit hard cuz you was jus here and we was just talking I almost cried
The sudden death of Gloxko hits hard, leading the speaker to almost cry due to the recent interaction with them.
Then start thinking bout my brother marr
Thoughts shift to the speaker's brother Marr, emphasizing the transient nature of life.
We was just chopping it up in the car
The speaker reminisces about a recent conversation with their brother in the car.
Now I'm just watching these niggas showing fake support why they ain't support from the Start
Reflecting on the lack of genuine support from people who now pretend to care, contrasting it with true support from the start.
Proc father called me on his death bed just to see me one more time
The speaker recalls a poignant moment when their father, on his deathbed, called to see them one last time.
Ruined my whole night I ain't get no sleep that night
The impact of the call ruins the speaker's night, leading to sleepless hours.
And I ain't got my grandma to vent to no more but she told me give the pain up to Christ
The speaker no longer has their grandmother to confide in but recalls her advice to surrender pain to Christ.
Heard the story bout king watch my mother practice singing for these funerals it don't Feel right
The speaker mentions a disconcerting experience of watching their mother practice singing for funerals, creating an unsettling atmosphere.
And they say the understand but u know they dont
Expressing a sense of isolation, believing that others may not truly understand the speaker's experiences.
Then they say they gon be there and I know they won't
Highlighting the gap between promised support and actual presence in difficult times.
Told bro to let 'em think we ain't bout it they gon see wat i tote
Advising a strategy of appearing nonchalant to certain situations until others witness the speaker's true capabilities.
I ain't never jus being moody just some thing you don't know
Clarifying that the speaker's moods are not random but tied to undisclosed personal experiences.
If I lose my life you don't even gotta cry
If the speaker were to lose their life, they don't want others to mourn; instead, they should be happy about the speaker's liberated soul.
Be happy when my soul fly
The speaker reassures that they are content after death, implying a positive afterlife.
Know that I'm alright
A declaration that the speaker is fine in the afterlife, continuing the theme of contentment.
If I say that I love you don't think bout it twice
An assurance of genuine love, urging others not to doubt its sincerity.
Roll up don't you worry bout the opps
A call to focus on positive things and not worry about adversaries.
Cuz ima smile seeing you play it smart
The speaker will be happy watching others make smart decisions, particularly in dealing with enemies.
And that's for Eric too I know you a spark
A shoutout to Eric, expressing confidence in his abilities and encouraging him to stay focused.
Lock in with them kids I'm coolan with gloxk
The speaker is comfortable and relaxed, associating with a Glock (a type of firearm) for protection.
I don't know if you know it I lost my mind
A repetition of the uncertainty about the speaker's mental state.
When they ask if I'm crying it's some in my eye
A reiteration that tears may be misunderstood as a sign of weakness.
I done had them nights way to many times
A repetition of experiencing challenging nights frequently.
I done had nights way too many times
Emphasizing the recurring nature of difficult nights.
I don't know if I'm living to die or I'm dying to live
A repetition of the existential contemplation about the purpose of living or dying.
I don't go outside catch me in the crib
A reaffirmation of the speaker's preference to stay indoors.
You don't know how it feel get a call that your man doing a bid and you won't see him for Some years
A reminder of the emotional impact of receiving news about a friend going to prison for an extended period.
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