Lyrics
(He's all I ever wanted, I love him, I love him)
Expressing deep affection for someone, acknowledging their importance in the speaker's life.
And you say I'm the worst I can't lie (Can't lie)
Admitting that they can't deny the negativity or criticism directed at them.
Oh girl, you might be right
Recognizing the possibility that the criticism might have merit.
And you must be thinking, what does he want?
Wondering about the other person's desires or intentions.
And we haven't spoke in like four-five months
Not having communicated for a significant period, yet still yearning for contact.
But I've been damn near praying, begging, hoping
Desperately wishing for a call, expressing a strong desire and hope.
That you would give me a call
Feeling vulnerable and willing to be there for the other person.
In a moment of weakness, bleakness, need this
Describing a moment of emotional vulnerability and a strong need for connection.
This time I'll be your doll
Expressing a willingness to comply or adapt this time around.
I've been up all night can't sleep at all
Experiencing sleeplessness due to emotional turmoil and distress.
I know you're the worst for me and
Recognizing the detrimental nature of the relationship but still feeling attached.
24/7, it's always you
Constantly preoccupied with thoughts of the other person.
Why can't I get over you?
Questioning the inability to move on from the person despite knowing it's necessary.
Cause I'm stuck on a mistake I can't let go
Feeling trapped by a mistake made in the relationship, unable to move forward.
Thinking about the way we hold
Recollecting intimate moments and experiences shared with the other person.
And I act like I'm fine and I say I don't mind
Putting up a façade of being okay while inwardly struggling with feelings.
But honestly, I wish you were dead
Expressing intense emotions, even wishing harm upon the person out of pain and frustration.
Cause I'm stuck on a mistake I can't let go
Feeling stuck in a cycle of being unable to move on from the relationship's mistake.
Thinking about the way we hold
Reflecting on past moments with the other person that linger in the mind.
And I act like I'm fine and I say I don't mind
Continuing to pretend to be fine despite inner turmoil and pain.
But honestly, I wish you were dead
Reiterating the intense wish for the person's absence due to emotional turmoil.
My jealousy got ahead of me (Oh yeah)
Admitting that jealousy has negatively impacted the relationship.
Lovers to enemies
Transition from lovers to enemies due to circumstances.
And I tried almost all my tricks
Trying various strategies unsuccessfully to salvage the relationship.
Don't think I can make you stay
Believing that the efforts may not be enough to retain the other person.
Well, I don't need your help, I can do it on my own
Asserting independence and self-reliance, not wanting assistance.
And I don't need your love, I'm good on my own
Claiming contentment with being alone, not dependent on the other person's love.
(Trying too hard, do you think she can tell?)
Wondering if the effort to appear unaffected is transparent to the other person.
(Oh, she can tell)
Implying the other person can discern the speaker's struggle despite the façade.
And I know I fucked up, (Oh God, I)
Acknowledging personal mistakes or faults with remorse.
I don't know when to fold, oh
Uncertainty about when to give up or stop pursuing the relationship.
Want to go back in time
Expressing a desire to reverse time and alter the course of events.
(Cause I'm stuck on)
Reiterating the feeling of being trapped or fixated on the past mistake.
Cause I'm stuck on a mistake I can't let go
Feeling incapable of moving beyond the mistake made in the relationship.
Thinking about the way we hold
Continued contemplation of past shared moments despite the struggle to move forward.
And I act like I'm fine and I say I don't mind
Maintaining a façade of being unaffected despite inner turmoil.
But honestly, I wish you were dead
Reiterating the intense wish for the person's absence due to emotional turmoil.
Cause I'm stuck on (Stuck- stuck- I can't I can't)
Expressing a feeling of being stuck and unable to move past the mistake.
Thinking ab (Oh- oh- way we way- way)
Fragmented expression indicating thoughts about past experiences and actions.
And I act like I'm (Act- act- say I don't say- say)
Continued pretense of being fine despite inner emotional turmoil.
But honestly (I'm- I'm) I wish you were dead
Reiterating the intense wish for the person's absence due to emotional turmoil.
(I love him, a mistake or not, I love him)
Reaffirming love for the person despite acknowledging the mistake made.
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