Lyrics
I look into her eyes
I am gazing into her eyes.
And I see another person
I perceive a different personality reflected in her eyes.
The warmth of her touch
The warmth of her touch is reminiscent of you.
Reminds me of you
Her touch evokes memories of someone else.
Her kisses goodnight
Her goodnight kisses drive me to drink.
Leads me to drinking
Feeling guilty inside, I resort to drinking.
The guilt I feel inside
The guilt is causing mental distress.
Make me lose my mind
This guilt is making me lose my sanity.
And I should be alone
I should be by myself instead of seeking other distractions.
Instead of looking for other things
Despite knowing better, I am searching for alternatives.
And I feel so numb
I feel emotionally numb.
But why do you bring so much pain?
Questioning why the person brings so much pain despite numbness.
I know its wrong
Intellectually understanding it's wrong, but it feels right with you.
But with you, it feels so right
Despite the knowledge of wrongdoing, being with you feels fulfilling.
I'm going straight to hell
Anticipating negative consequences, like going to hell.
But the glimpse of you is heaven
Your presence, though, feels heavenly despite the consequences.
Let me hold your hand
Requesting to hold hands before memories fade.
Before we forget one another
Fearing the loss of connection, going crazy wishing you were my lover.
I'm going crazy
Questioning if selfish for prioritizing my mind.
Wishing that you're my lover
Wondering why I'm hoping when it seems futile.
Was I selfish?
Contemplating if my choices were self-centered.
That I chose my mind
Choosing my own well-being, questioning the purpose of hope.
Why am I hoping
Feeling stuck, unsure of the right course of action.
I'm wasting my time
Continuing to deceive myself despite knowing deep down it's about you.
I'm stuck in between
Expressing being trapped in a dilemma without a clear solution.
I don't know what to do
Confused about what actions to take.
I keep lying to myself
Engaging in self-deception, denying the truth within.
When I know deep inside that it's you
Acknowledging the internal conflict revolves around you.
I know its wrong
Intellectually understanding it's wrong, but it feels right with you.
But with you, it feels so right
Despite the knowledge of wrongdoing, being with you feels fulfilling.
I'm going straight to hell
Anticipating negative consequences, like going to hell.
But the glimpse of you is heaven
Your presence, though, feels heavenly despite the consequences.
Let me hold your hand
Requesting to hold hands before memories fade.
Before we forget one another
Fearing the loss of connection, going crazy wishing you were my lover.
I'm going crazy
Questioning if selfish for prioritizing my mind.
Wishing that you're my lover
Wondering why I'm hoping when it seems futile.
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