Lyrics
I've learned the world it never moves in a straight line
I've learned that the world doesn't follow a straightforward path.
Like my midnight insides reeking holy havoc on the west side
My internal struggles during the night create a disruptive influence on the western side.
I hide dry and bitter lights under my riptide eyes
I conceal my dry and bitter emotions beneath my turbulent eyes.
I'm afraid of my infinite little mind
I fear the vastness of my own thoughts.
I love you like a sailor loves the sea
I express my love for you with the intensity of a sailor's love for the sea.
With longing and terror and envy
My love is accompanied by a mix of deep yearning, fear, and jealousy.
But I want too much and I think I'll be okay
Although I desire a lot, I believe I'll be fine.
If I just fill myself up cause I don't know another way
I think filling myself up is the only way I know to cope.
How does your heart have so many doors
I wonder why your heart has so many barriers.
And why do I find it so hard to be cared for
It's challenging for me to accept care from others.
But don't hold it against me (don't hold it against, don't hold it against, don't hold it against me)
Despite my struggles, please don't hold it against me; I'm still learning to find salvation.
I'm still learning how to be saved
I am in the process of learning how to be saved.
So don't hold it against me (don't hold it against, don't hold it against, don't hold it against me)
Again, don't hold it against me as I navigate this journey.
I'm not ready to be rearranged
I am not prepared to undergo significant changes just yet.
Don't hold it against me
Regardless of my struggles, please don't hold it against me.
Don't hold it against me
Reiteration: Please don't hold it against me.
Our crowded futures will be filled with acid rainbows
Our collective futures will be challenging, marked by vibrant but tumultuous experiences.
And maybe love will be the only way to make it feel like home
Perhaps, love will be the only source of comfort, making it feel like home.
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