Lyrics
What is my free will if I lie helpless?
Questioning the value of free will when feeling utterly helpless.
I want all of the pain, I'm selfish
Expressing a desire for pain, acknowledging selfishness.
All my real ones, I know that they felt this
Acknowledging that genuine friends have experienced similar pain.
Pain that's endless
Referring to enduring, unending pain.
I wish death had took me first
Expressing a wish to have died before loved ones.
With my loved ones written on a T-Shirt
Imagining loved ones memorialized on clothing after death.
In the clean suit, ridin' in a cheap hearse
Imagery of being transported in a basic, inexpensive hearse after death.
Wishin' it was reverse, waitin' for the reapers
Desiring a reversal of circumstances, waiting for death itself.
Won't you take me instead?
Pleading for someone else to take their place in death.
Won't you aim for my head?
Asking for someone to target them instead of others.
If there's heaven waitin'
Contemplating the existence of heaven and seeking forgiveness.
Helping me for my forgiveness
Requesting forgiveness for past actions or mistakes.
Won't you take me instead?
Repeated plea for someone else to take their place in death.
When I wait for my rest?
Wondering when their own rest or end will come.
If there's heaven waitin'
Reflecting on the possibility of heaven and seeking forgiveness again.
Now blame me for my forgiveness
Feeling responsible and seeking forgiveness for actions or consequences.
(Won't you)
Repeated plea for someone else to take their place in death.
Won't you take me instead?
-I was holdin' in my last breath
Describing a moment of feeling breathless or near the end.
Foldin' in when all the colder shit in then my life took a fast left
Experiencing a drastic change, feeling lost, and disoriented.
Watch you bleedin', know the way you seen me like I was half dead
Witnessing others' pain and feeling partially dead inside.
But I just couldn't accept
Unable to accept or process something.
I just couldn't ever, everything was fine with you, but now we're past that, but
Reflecting on a past state of contentment, but it's now over.
I would take the pain for you in a heartbeat
Willing to endure pain on behalf of someone else.
To take it from me better bring up an army
Being prepared to face significant challenges for another's sake.
Selfishly I thought the hell was serious, just enough for you to have to leave it alone
Realizing the seriousness of a situation affecting someone.
I'm not sorry, I'm not ready to give up this easy
Refusing to give up easily or without a fight.
I'll rip my heart out from the front of my chest 'fore I turn my back or you don't need me
Expressing a willingness to go to extreme lengths for someone.
Won't you take me instead?
Repeated plea for someone else to take their place in death.
Won't you aim for my head?
Requesting to be the target instead of others.
If there's heaven waitin'
Contemplating the existence of heaven and seeking forgiveness.
Helping me for my forgiveness
Requesting forgiveness for past actions or mistakes.
Won't you take me instead?
Repeated plea for someone else to take their place in death.
When I wait for my rest?
Wondering when their own rest or end will come.
If there's heaven waitin'
Reflecting on the possibility of heaven and seeking forgiveness again.
Now blame me for my forgiveness
Feeling responsible and seeking forgiveness for actions or consequences.
(Won't you)
Repeated plea for someone else to take their place in death.
Won't you take me instead?
-Take me instead, take me instead, take me instead, take me instead
Reiterated plea for someone else to take their place in death.
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