Lyrics
Yesterday I sat in wonder
Reflecting on the past with a sense of amazement.
at the flowers and the grave
Contemplating flowers and a grave, possibly indicating a visit to a cemetery.
Still she's gone
Expressing the absence of someone important.
Still she's gone
Reiteration of the absence, emphasizing the lingering emptiness.
Now there are times I sit and ponder
Considering whether to mourn, kneel, and pray.
should I lament kneel and pray
Weighing the decision to move forward despite the loss.
And go on
Affirming the choice to continue despite the challenges.
And go on
Reiteration of the determination to move on.
Well my tears have become my holy water
Tears symbolize a form of emotional purification.
stokeing dead fires in empty rooms for so long
Reviving emotions in empty spaces, possibly dealing with grief.
So wrong
Acknowledging the difficulty or wrongness of the emotional process.
Should I regret and always atone
Contemplating regret and the need for continuous repentance.
afterall we all come in and go out alone
Reflecting on the inevitability of solitary existence.
All alone
Emphasizing the loneliness of the human experience.
Eventhough it's not December
Despite the time not being December, feeling a cold, death-like sensation.
I feel that killing chill in me
Sensing a chilling effect growing within.
as it grows
The cold feeling persists and intensifies.
it always grows
Rejecting the growing coldness.
I say no
Asserting a refusal to succumb to the coldness.
The garden that was you now lays fallow
Describing the decay of a metaphorical garden that represented a person.
the dust that is me now can't quench its thirst
Symbolizing the narrator's inability to satisfy their own desires.
anymore
Expressing the finality of the separation.
So long
Acknowledging the duration of the emotional struggle.
I'm just a man who wants a ship to heaven
Desiring a transcendent experience to reunite with the departed.
to see her again and again
Expressing the yearning to see the departed again.
but I have no wings or magical means
Realizing the lack of extraordinary means to achieve the desired reunion.
all I have are my memories
Highlighting the significance of memories as the only available connection.
Memories
Reinforcing the importance of memories in the absence of other options.
I never trusted this life for a moment
Expressing a lack of trust in life, despite embracing it.
but I drank it in anyway
Indulging in life despite reservations or doubts.
The wine stained pages we each turn
Referring to experiences that are recorded but lack color or vibrancy.
are often seen in black and white
Acknowledging the contrasting nature of life experiences.
And through the ages I've learned
Learning to discern truth from falsehood and clearing space for authenticity.
to clear a space on the shelf and dust off the lies
Taking the time to understand and confront lies.
To read every book and every last line
Engaging with every aspect of life's story, even the painful ones.
and then burn the page
Symbolizing a symbolic cleansing or renewal through the act of burning.
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