Lyrics
Every day is the fucking same
Every day is monotonous and unchanging
Regret, remorse and all this pain
Feeling remorse, regret, and enduring pain regularly
I really wish things could have gone a different way
Expressing a desire for a different outcome in life
Wish I had a way to fucking explain
Wishing for a means to explain oneself
So many things I would have done a different way
Reflecting on missed opportunities and alternative choices
So many ways I could have fucking changed
Frustration over the inability to make positive changes
BUT SO FUCKING WHAT
Defiant attitude towards the status quo
It would all be the same anyway
Belief that any change would result in the same outcome
No sense in prolonging it
Choosing not to prolong the inevitable
I've accepted my fate
Acceptance of one's predetermined destiny
For people like me, there is no escape
Feeling trapped with no possibility of escape
Imprisoned by my own failures
Self-imprisonment due to personal failures
Stuck in this guilt, frozen in shame
Emotionally stuck in guilt, experiencing shame
You look at me like this, like I can fucking change
Perceiving judgment and expectations for change from others
Why would I
Questioning the motivation to change
What would I gain
Doubting any significant benefit from change
A sense of purpose, I bet fucking not
Rejecting the idea of finding purpose through change
Some days, I wish to lay down and rot,
Expressing a desire for escape through self-destruction
No sense in prolonging it
Choosing not to prolong suffering
Stuck in this guilt, frozen in shame
Continued experience of guilt and shame
You look at me like this, like I can fucking change
Perception of external judgment and pressure to change
In all the ways I was gifted, I found ways to fuck up again
Acknowledging the misuse of innate abilities leading to failure
In all the ways I was helped, I pulled myself down again
Rejecting assistance and sabotaging one's own progress
Why must I be this way
Questioning one's own nature and tendencies
Stuck in this guilt, frozen in shame
Continued experience of guilt and shame
Fuck life
An expression of frustration and negativity towards life
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