Lyrics
My days are numbered
Expressing a sense of limited time or mortality
And my head starts to sway again
Feeling dizzy or disoriented mentally
Light a cigarette to honor the days I
Using a cigarette as a tribute to the time lost
Should have left but instead I'll stay inside
Regretting staying indoors despite the need to leave
I'm a hypocrite
Acknowledging one's own contradiction or inconsistency
You'll get over it
Assuming the listener will move past the contradiction
I'm not desperate
Asserting independence, not in a state of despair
So stay out of it
Advising others to refrain from interference
While I sit in the bathroom
Physically positioned in the bathroom
Bracing the wall for my
Leaning against the wall due to exhaustion or weakness
Heavy Breathing
Struggling to breathe heavily
Guilty Feeling
Experiencing guilt or remorse
Wasting my days
Wasting time without purpose
Now I'm getting older
Sensing the passage of time, getting older
Blaming my legs
Blaming oneself for not making significant efforts
for not moving harder
Expressing dissatisfaction with personal effort
What does it take
Questioning what it would require to improve
If only I were smarter
Regretting lack of intelligence or wisdom
Whither away
Gradually disappearing or diminishing
I won't be a bother with my
Not wanting to cause trouble despite difficulties
Heavy Breathing
Struggling to breathe heavily
Guilty Feeling
Experiencing guilt or remorse
Never thought I'd get this bad
Surprised at reaching such a low point
So much for reaching out to friends
Failed attempt to connect with friends in a time of need
You were always what I wanted
Acknowledging the listener as the desired person
You're all that I'm not
Comparing oneself to the desired person, feeling inadequate
Sad I'm all that you've got
Regretting being the only support for the listener
But for now I, I can't sleep with this
Unable to rest due to heavy breathing
Heavy Breathing
Struggling to breathe heavily
Guilty Feeling
Experiencing guilt or remorse
Never thought I'd get this bad
Surprised at reaching such a low point
So much for reaching out to friends
Failed attempt to connect with friends in a time of need
You were always what I wanted
Acknowledging the listener as the desired person
You were always what I wanted
Repeated acknowledgment of the listener as desired
Cause you're all that I'm not
Highlighting the listener's qualities one lacks
But it always came back full circle
Realization that situations tend to repeat cyclically
Slam down the brakes
Forcefully stopping or pausing something
Heavy breathing
Struggling to breathe heavily
Guilty feeling
Experiencing guilt or remorse
Sad I'm all that you got
Regretting being the sole source of support
But I always came back more hurtful
Acknowledging a pattern of returning in a hurtful manner
Slam down the brakes
Forcefully stopping or pausing something
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