Lyrics
Survivor’s guilt
Feeling guilty for surviving
What did I wish for?
Questioning what desires were wished for
I never knew the cost
Unaware of the true cost of something
All these years on
After many years
It’s not wasted on me
Recognizing value or significance
But I never know what I have ’til it’s gone
Realizing importance only after losing it
I’m deaf to your words
Unable to hear what is said
I’m blind to your actions
Unable to see what is done
Couldn’t sense the change in the air
Not perceiving a change in the environment
Or see the lights refractions
Not noticing the alteration of light
I don’t know where I belong
Feeling uncertain about where one fits or belongs
Why did I beg
Questioning why pleaded or asked
Wallowed in my own regrets
Indulged in one's own sorrows
Absorbed in my petulance
Engrossed in selfishness or sulking
Ungrateful as ever
Not appreciative despite circumstances
No matter how hard I try
Struggling despite efforts
I know I’m not worthy
Feeling inadequate or undeserving
I don’t know where I belong
Uncertain about where one belongs
But I feel like I’ve done wrong
Feeling guilty or remorseful
Guilt
Overwhelming feeling of guilt
A godless throne
A position of power or authority without divine influence
I sat and wondered why I’m still here
Questioning one's purpose or existence
On this soil we lay our bodies down forever
Realization of mortality and final resting place
And I’ll be waiting for the ground to swallow me
Desiring to be swallowed by the earth
Only to close my eyes
Acceptance of death or fate
And not see that it has taken you.
Not perceiving the loss
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