Vexation
Navigating Despair: Unveiling the Depths of Inner Turmoil in 156/Silence's 'Vexation'
Lyrics
With displeasure I appease you just to follow your lead.
Expressing displeasure but reluctantly conforming to your guidance.
I’m disgusted by my actions almost every day and I don’t need you.
Feeling repulsed by personal actions frequently and asserting independence.
You can finally erase all the memories that you have and all the good times you saved.
Suggesting the option to erase memories and past good times that hold no value.
They mean nothing to me at all.
Stating that those memories mean nothing to the speaker.
Bet you bite your tongue.
Imagining the other person holding back words or feelings.
I never fucking asked for this and you can take it all back with you.
Rejecting an undesired situation and expressing a desire to undo it.
You can face this all alone if it’s what you want.
Granting the choice to face challenges alone if desired.
I can’t believe I’ve never seen this as it is. Are we just a blur?
Questioning the clarity of perception and whether things are just a blur.
You just cut, cut, cut, cut me up ‘cause it feels so good.
Describing the pleasure of being hurt intentionally.
It’s impressively saddening.
Expressing a mix of awe and sadness at the intensity of emotions.
And I've seen pain breed
Observing pain as a source of negative emotions.
with all those I’ve come to need.
Noting that pain is associated with those the speaker depends on.
I can’t keep acting like I’m just a person that doesn’t feel defeat.
Admitting vulnerability and an inability to act indifferent to defeat.
I compare myself with everything else instead.
Comparing oneself to others rather than recognizing personal worth.
It’s as pathetic as it feels yet I continue to just embrace.
Acknowledging the pathetic nature of self-pity but embracing it.
I forget how to forget as I waste my days.
Forgetting how to forget, wasting days in futile memories.
Its such a fucking nuisance.
Describing a troublesome and irritating situation.
And I’m so complacently defenseless to my own hate.
Being defenseless and submissive to personal hatred.
It breaks and it throws away.
Referring to a break or deterioration in something important.
It bludgeons the faith encased.
Expressing damage to faith or belief, possibly by external influences.
I can’t pretend to save what’s left if there’s anything. It’s all just a fucking shame.
Admitting the inability to salvage anything meaningful, expressing shame.
There’s only disappointment
Acknowledging disappointment from those who trusted the speaker.
for all those that have entrusted me.
Expressing fear that negativity has overwhelmed the speaker's being.
And I fear
Questioning whether the speaker will resist destructive tendencies.
that the blight has engulfed my frame.
Admitting imperfection and distance from an ideal state.
Will I steer from the vices that resonate?
Contemplating whether the speaker will avoid harmful habits.
I am far from perfection.
Acknowledging a lack of perfection and indifference in the past.
I guess I never gave a fuck.
Stating a historical lack of concern and a reluctance to change now.
And I won’t begin to now.
Emphasizing a continued lack of concern or care.
No.
Concluding with a definitive "no."
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