Lyrics
I'm 19 years old and I still don't know what to do
I am 19 years old and still uncertain about my life direction.
I'm tired of acting front of people that ain't cool
I'm tired of pretending to be someone I'm not for people who aren't genuine.
Portraying an image of myself know that ain't true
Projecting a false image of myself, acknowledging it's not authentic.
It's got to the point in life, I'm losing myself too
Reached a point where I feel lost and detached from my true self.
But I, still don't deny
Despite everything, I can't deny the fabrications that have shaped my life.
All the shit I made up, making my life a lie
Admitting to creating a false narrative, turning my life into a lie.
Honestly, I can't explain, not even worth the try
Unable to explain my situation adequately, not even worth attempting.
I'll just accept what I have until I die
Choosing to accept my circumstances as they are until my death.
So I'll go, go with the flow
Deciding to go with the flow of life.
Working two jobs, struggling, you don't know
Juggling two jobs, facing struggles unknown to others.
Always getting high, but I'm feeling so low
Frequently getting high but experiencing emotional lows.
Just discovering my mind, i'm tryna learn how to grow
Exploring my mind, attempting to learn and grow.
Don't you recognize these feels I'm having for you
Expressing romantic feelings for someone.
Don't you wish you knew
Posing a question about whether the person recognizes these feelings.
Girl come
Inviting a girl to come.
Girl come through baby what you tryna do
Repeated invitation for the girl to come over, spend the night, and set a mood.
Girl come through baby what you tryna do
-Girl come through baby what you tryna do
-Spend the night and ride this mood
Reiterating the desire for the girl to spend the night and asking what she wants to do.
Baby what you tryna do
-Oh why, do I, always feel like I'm wrong, like I'm messed up
Expressing a constant feeling of being wrong or messed up.
Old girl left me, but I guess that's just my luck
Reflecting on a past breakup and considering it bad luck.
When the shits about me, no ones gives a
Feeling unnoticed when it's about oneself.
Well fuck what you think
Disregarding others' opinions and actions.
And fuck what you do
Rejecting interference, deciding to stay in one's lane, and distancing from past relationships.
I'll stay in my lane, you'll be someone I knew
-But I
Despite the detachment, still holding onto wishes about the person leaving the mind.
Still wishing that you'd get out my mind
Expressing a desire for the person to leave the mind.
Well it's clear I can't t solve them
Acknowledging an inability to solve problems.
I know myself is the problem
Recognizing oneself as the problem and committing to correcting mistakes for the long term.
I'll right my wrongs for the long run
Committing to rectifying mistakes for the long run.
But then I
Despite the commitment, expressing doubts and uncertainties.
I'm praying to my lord that he'll fix me
Praying for divine intervention to fix personal issues.
I'm on my knees, just forgive me
Begging for forgiveness and expressing remorse.
I mean just know that I know that it's my life
Acknowledging that it's one's life and understanding the consequences of actions.
Don't you recognize these thoughts i'm having for you?
Posing a similar question about recognizing thoughts for the person.
Don't you wish you knew
Repeating the question about whether the person wishes to know these thoughts.
Girl come
Inviting the girl again.
Don't you wish you knew, everything I did for you
Reiterating the wish for the person to know everything done for them.
Don't you wish you knew, everything I did for you
-No no
-Don't you wish you knew
Emphasizing the unfulfilled wish for the person to know.
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