Withered
Unveiling Shadows: A Journey from Self-Doubt to Forgiveness
Lyrics
I told myself that one day I'd be free
I aspired to achieve freedom in the future.
Of everything, you had me believe
You made me believe in things that turned out to be untrue.
Of self-doubt, and longing to be, another me
Struggling with self-doubt and a desire to be someone else.
I'll be ok, I'll be okay
Expressing confidence that everything will be okay.
You promised you'd care for me
You promised to take care of me.
A life spent wondering what I could be
Reflecting on a life spent wondering about unrealized potential.
What I could
Questioning what could have been.
I hear your voice in the back of my head
Hearing your influence lingering in my thoughts.
Screaming out, you'll never be enough
Your voice emphasizes that I'll never measure up.
Of all the words playing on repeat
Words, possibly hurtful, repeating in the mind.
They had to be the nightmare of my past
Those words are the haunting remnants of a painful past.
It's taken years for me to get this far
It took years to overcome and reach this point.
For me to say, I forgive everything
Finally reaching a state of forgiveness.
Still I don't understand you
Despite forgiveness, not comprehending your actions.
What makes you think
Questioning the rationale behind your behavior.
You could choke a child
An accusation of an extreme and harmful action.
It's taken years for me to get this far
Reiterating the journey of overcoming challenges.
My resolve is withering
Expressing a weakening of determination.
I chose to forgive you once
Choosing forgiveness once before.
I might not do it again
Uncertainty about forgiving again in the future.
I hear your voice in the back of my head
Revisiting the haunting influence of your voice.
Screaming out, you'll never be enough
The persisting belief that I'll never be enough.
Of all the words playing on repeat
Repetition of hurtful words in the mind.
They had to be the nightmare of my past
Those words continue to be a nightmare from the past.
I dream of the day
Dreaming of a future where I am liberated.
That I'll be set free
Yearning for the day when self-doubt is overcome.
Of self doubt and longing to be someone else
The desire to be someone else is fading away.
They wither away
Hopes and aspirations are diminishing.
At all I can be
Lamenting the loss of potential due to anxiety.
I've lost my potential to anxiety
Acknowledging a state of diminished capability.
I'd rather dig my own grave
Preferably choosing self-destruction over continued suffering.
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