Paralytic States
Paralytic States: A Haunting Tale of Dysphoria and Desperation
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She could hear them fucking through
Overhearing sexual activity through thin hotel walls
Those thin hotel walls
Reference to the walls of a cheap hotel
She heard babies crying,
Awareness of the sound of babies crying
She heard laughter, she heard sirens
Hearing various sounds, including laughter and sirens
Red and blue lights flashing
Visualizing police lights (red and blue) through hotel drapes
Through those cheap hotel drapes
Describing the hotel drapes as cheap
Blood spilled out on the porcelain
Imagery of blood on porcelain surfaces, possibly in a bathtub
The bath tub's over-flowing
Overflowing bathwater in the bathtub
Paralytic states of dependency
Reference to a state of paralysis caused by dependency
All waking life's just a living dream
Suggesting that all waking life is like a living dream
Agitated states of amazement
Describing a state of agitation and amazement
Never quite the woman that she wanted to be
Expressing dissatisfaction with one's identity or self
Never quite the woman that she wanted to be
Repeating the dissatisfaction with self
Spread out faced down on those
Depicting someone lying facedown on stained hotel sheets
Stained cheap hotel sheets
Describing the poor quality of the hotel sheets
She spent the last years of her life
Narrating the last years of life spent running from one's past
Running from the boy she used to be
Escaping from a previous identity or persona
Cut her face wide open
Physically harming oneself, possibly altering appearance
Shaved the bone down thin
Describing a drastic facial injury
Plumped her lips up exaggerated
Emphasizing cosmetic enhancements in an exaggerated manner
A fucked up kind of feminine
Expressing a distorted form of femininity
Paralytic states of dependency
Reiteration of a state of paralysis caused by dependency
All waking life's just a living dream
Reiterating the idea that waking life is like a living dream
Agitated states of amazement
Repeating the description of an agitated and amazed state
Never quite the woman that she wanted to be
Reiterating dissatisfaction with one's desired identity
Never quite the woman that she wanted to be
Repeating dissatisfaction with the desired self
Night time at the hotel there was fighting in the hall
Describing disturbances and conflict in a hotel at night
Thin chain lock to keep the world out
Describing a thin chain lock as a means to isolate oneself
She held her breath till it was gone
Holding breath to escape or cope with external disturbances
Standing naked in front of that hotel bathroom mirror
Being vulnerable and exposed in front of a hotel bathroom mirror
In her dysphoria's reflection
Seeing one's own reflection and experiencing dysphoria
She still saw her mother's son
Despite changes, still identifying with the past
Paralytic states of dependency
Reiteration of a state of paralysis caused by dependency
All waking life's just a living dream
Reiterating the idea that waking life is like a living dream
Agitated states of amazement
Repeating the description of an agitated and amazed state
Never quite the woman that she wanted to be
Reiterating dissatisfaction with one's desired identity
Never quite the woman that she wanted to be
Repeating dissatisfaction with the desired self
By the time the ball dropped it was already over
Indicating that a significant event (the ball dropping) marks the end
By the time the ball dropped it was already over
Repeating the idea that it's already over by the time a new year begins
No resolutions for the new year beginning tomorrow
Expressing a lack of resolutions for the upcoming new year
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