These Are the Thoughts
Reflections on Life's Complexity: Alanis Morissette's Introspective Journey
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These are the thoughts that go through my head
Reflecting on thoughts in her mind.
In my backyard on a Sunday afternoon
Setting: backyard on a relaxed Sunday afternoon.
When I have the house to myself and I am not
Alone in the house, contemplating without distractions.
Expending all that energy on fighting
Avoiding conflicts, conserving energy.
With my boyfriend
Internal struggle with her boyfriend.
Is he the one that I will marry
Questioning the future of her relationship.
And why's it so hard to be good to myself?
Difficulty in self-care and self-love.
And why do I feel cellularly alone?
Feeling deeply isolated on a cellular level.
Am I supposed to live in this crazy city
Questioning life in a hectic city.
You mean I'm not acorn
Identity questioning – not just a small, insignificant entity.
Where does the money go that I send
Wondering about the impact of charitable donations.
To charities, if we have so much why do some people have
Questioning wealth disparity despite efforts.
Nothing, still why do I feel frantic when I
Feeling anxious at the start of the day.
First wake up in the morning?
Unknown reasons for morning anxiety.
Why do you say you are spiritual
Critical of those claiming spirituality but behaving poorly.
Yet you treat people like shit?
Addressing hypocritical behavior in spiritual individuals.
How can you say you're close to God, and yet you talk behind
Contradictions in claiming closeness to God but gossiping.
My back as though I'm not a part of you, why do you say "I'm fine"
Observing dishonesty in expressing well-being.
When it's obvious you are not, why's it so hard to tell you what I want
Difficulty in expressing personal desires.
Why can't you just read my mind?
Frustration at the expectation of mind-reading.
Why do I fear that the quieter I am
Fear of being unheard if she remains silent.
The less people will listen
Concern about the correlation between silence and attention.
Why do I care whether you like me or not
Seeking approval and struggling with likability.
Why's it so hard for me to be angry
Difficulty expressing anger.
Why's it so hard to become passionate and so easy to get stuck
Challenging to find passion, easy to feel stuck.
And not the other way around
Reflecting on the difficulty of change.
Will I ever move back to Canada
Contemplating a potential return to her home country.
Can I be with a lover with whom I am a student
Desiring a balanced relationship of learning and teaching.
And a master, why am I encouraged to shut my mouth
Questioning societal pressure to stay silent about personal matters.
When it gets too close to home, why cannot I
Frustration with societal expectations of silence.
Live in the moment
Yearning to live in the present moment.
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