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4th grade, I was 10
Reflecting on a childhood memory at the age of 10.
Doctor took my blood, ran some tests
Medical tests were conducted, including blood tests.
Sent me to a psychiatrist
Referred to a psychiatrist for further evaluation.
Said I had a chemical imbalance
Diagnosed with a chemical imbalance by the psychiatrist.
Grandma told me I'd be alright
Grandma reassured that everything would be fine with outdoor activities.
Just get some sun, run around outside
Despite the advice, outdoor activities didn't alleviate the situation.
Whole lotta good that did
Expressing disappointment in the suggested solution.
Turns out she didn't know shit
Realization that Grandma's advice was ineffective.
Yeah I really showed 'em all
Achieved personal success despite earlier challenges.
'Cuz I'm grown up and dysfunctional
Describing oneself as an adult with dysfunctionality.
My daily dose of Citalopram
Mention of taking Citalopram as part of daily routine.
Helps me cope with my crazy fam
Using medication to cope with challenges within the family.
When I can't take it, I'll take one more
Occasionally taking an extra dose under stress.
Buspar, try EMDR
Trying Buspar and EMDR as additional coping mechanisms.
I'm the poster child of unstableness
Self-awareness and acknowledgment of personal instability.
Balancing my chemical imbalances
Striving to balance and manage chemical imbalances.
It's been 8 years since I've been home
Eight years since being home, indicating distance or estrangement.
My cousin asked what drugs I'm on
Cousin's inquiry about medication usage.
I pulled out my list, started reading it
Reading out a list of doctor-prescribed drugs.
And she was surprised to find that they were doctor prescribed
Cousin surprised that the medications are prescribed.
Yeah I really showed 'em all
Reiteration of personal success despite challenges.
'Cuz I'm grown up and dysfunctional
Continued reference to adult dysfunctionality.
My daily dose of Citalopram
Repetition of taking Citalopram as part of daily routine.
Helps me cope with my crazy fam
Continued use of medication to cope with family challenges.
When I can't take it, I'll take one more
Admitting to taking an extra dose under extreme stress.
Buspar, try EMDR
Trying Buspar and EMDR as additional coping mechanisms (repeated).
I'm the poster child of unstableness
Reiteration of being a poster child of unstableness.
Balancing my chemical imbalances
Continued effort to balance and manage chemical imbalances.
Well certified, bonified
Asserting certification and validation of personal challenges.
I got issues, I wonder why...
Raising self-awareness about personal issues.
Yeah I really showed 'em all
Repetition of personal success despite challenges.
'Cuz I'm grown up and dysfunctional
Continued reference to adult dysfunctionality.
My daily dose of Citalopram
Repetition of taking Citalopram as part of daily routine.
Helps me cope with my crazy fam
Continued use of medication to cope with family challenges.
When I can't take it, I'll take one more
Admitting to taking an extra dose under extreme stress.
Buspar, try EMDR
Trying Buspar and EMDR as additional coping mechanisms (repeated).
I'm the poster child of unstableness
Reiteration of being a poster child of unstableness.
Balancing my chemical imbalances
Continued effort to balance and manage chemical imbalances.
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