Lyrics
I smoke my cigs in the corner
I isolate myself, smoking cigarettes in a corner
Watch you all dance in the moment
I observe everyone dancing in the moment
Questioning why I went sober
I question why I chose sobriety
It's cause my life felt over
My life felt unbearable, prompting my sobriety
Wish I could go back to recess
I wish I could return to carefree times, like recess
Now I just sit here and pretend
Now I sit alone, pretending
Drunk hook upstairs, no more romance
A casual encounter upstairs lacks romance
No one is real, I got no friends
I feel disconnected, doubting the authenticity of my friendships
Cause I hate me and I know you see that
Self-loathing is evident, and I acknowledge it
There's nowhere to be on this road map
I feel lost, with no clear direction on the roadmap of life
I didn't think that things would get this bad
I didn't anticipate things deteriorating to this extent
Just relax
An urging to take a moment and calm down
Hate everyone but I don't want
I dislike everyone, yet I don't want to be alone
To be loner I don't know how
Feeling unsure about how to avoid loneliness
Wish I could talk to someone about
Desire to confide in someone about everything
Everything but there's no one around
No one is available to talk to
Wish I was happy for tomorrow
I wish I could be optimistic about the future
But things get worse the more that you know
However, things worsen as knowledge increases
Think back to the days when I was young
Nostalgia for the days of youthful joy
When everything was so awesome
Reflecting on a time when everything seemed wonderful
Cause I hate me and I know you see that
Reiteration of self-hatred and awareness of it
There's nowhere to be on this road map
Feeling lost with no clear direction on life's roadmap
I didn't think that things would get this bad
Unexpectedly finding oneself in a difficult situation
Just relax
An urging to take a moment and calm down (repeated)
Cause I hate me and I know you see that
Reiteration of self-hatred and awareness of it (repeated)
There's nowhere to be on this road map
Feeling lost with no clear direction on life's roadmap (repeated)
I didn't think that things would get this bad
Unexpectedly finding oneself in a difficult situation (repeated)
Just relax
An urging to take a moment and calm down (repeated)
Just relax
An additional emphasis on the need to relax
Just relax
A final emphasis on the importance of relaxation
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