intimate as friends
Navigating Love's Edge: Alyssa Thomas' Intimate Struggle
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Don't know how to admit that i'm scared
Expressing difficulty in acknowledging fear.
To get too attached when you're standing there
Fear of forming strong attachments while someone is present.
I hate myself for wanting you still
Self-blame for still desiring the person.
Getting fucked up cause you're in my brain
Seeking escape through intoxication due to preoccupation with the person.
And it's 2am i'm feeling insane
Feelings of insanity at 2am, possibly due to emotional turmoil.
Are you thinking of me you're just so far away
Longing for the person who seems emotionally distant.
And maybe I should've stayed in your head but nowhere close to who you are in bed
Regret for not maintaining a mental distance, contrasting with physical intimacy.
Cause we were being intimate as friends
Describing a relationship with emotional closeness but without commitment.
It got too close I couldn't handle it
Difficulty handling the emotional proximity, leading to a breakdown.
You say you love me I said it back
Mutual expressions of love with potential emotional weight.
You knew I meant it
Reassurance that the love declaration was sincere.
I meant
Highlighting the significance of the previous statement.
Every word
Affirmation of the sincerity of every spoken word.
Every touch
Acknowledging the impact of physical contact.
I don't know why I can't handle it when it gets close
Confusion about the difficulty in handling emotional closeness.
I don't know why I can't handle it when it gets close
Repetition of the struggle with emotional proximity.
Your hands in my hair all over my waist
Describing physical intimacy through sensory details.
I love how you feel and the way you taste babe
Expressing affection for the person's physical presence.
But I know I can't keep it
Acknowledging the impossibility of maintaining the closeness.
Cause i'm getting emotionally attached
Realization of becoming emotionally attached despite initial intentions.
I didn't know it would hurt this bad to be so close
Surprise at the unexpected pain of emotional closeness.
So i'll let you go
Choosing to let go for emotional self-preservation.
And maybe I should've stayed in your head but nowhere close to who you are in bed
Reflecting on the choice not to stay emotionally connected.
Cause we were being intimate as friends
Reiteration of the emotional intimacy without commitment.
It got too close I couldn't handle it
Acknowledging emotional proximity led to difficulty coping.
You say you love me I said it back
Recalling mutual expressions of love and their sincerity.
You knew I meant it
Confirmation of the genuine nature of the expressed love.
I meant
Reaffirmation of the sincerity of every spoken word.
Every word
Acknowledging the impact of every word and touch.
Every touch
Reiteration of the emotional significance of words and touches.
I don't know why I can't handle it when it gets close
Confusion about the difficulty in handling emotional closeness.
What if I wasn't just in your head
Pondering the difference between being in someone's thoughts and being physically present.
And we were in person together again
Imagining the impact of physical presence on the emotional experience.
Would it still hurt like this
Questioning whether the emotional pain would persist in person.
Or could we be intimate as friends
Exploring the possibility of maintaining emotional closeness in person.
Maybe I should've stayed in your head but nowhere close to who you are in bed
Reflecting on the choice not to stay emotionally connected.
Cause we were being intimate as friends
Reiteration of the emotional intimacy without commitment.
It got too close I couldn't handle it
Acknowledging emotional proximity led to difficulty coping.
You say you love me I said it back
Recalling mutual expressions of love and their sincerity.
You knew I meant it
Confirmation of the genuine nature of the expressed love.
I meant
Reaffirmation of the sincerity of every spoken word.
Every word
Acknowledging the impact of every word and touch.
Every touch
Reiteration of the emotional significance of words and touches.
I don't know why I can't handle it when it gets close
Confusion about the difficulty in handling emotional closeness.
I don't know why I can't handle it when it gets close ahh
Expressing continued confusion and difficulty with emotional closeness.
I don't know why I can't handle when it's close
Repetition of the ongoing struggle with handling emotional proximity.
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