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Walking down this dark lane
Contemplating life while walking in a challenging and difficult path
Wondering if i'll continue down this road or ever see life
Uncertainty about continuing on the current life path and questioning if a positive future is possible
Maybe i should continue doing this throughout the night
Considering persisting in current actions, possibly involving inner struggles, throughout the night
Even though if it just doesn't feel right
Persisting despite a feeling of discomfort or unease
But a lotta thoughts coming through my head while walking
Various thoughts crossing the mind while walking
And maybe some of them are true but i got all these stuff to say like
Expressing a need to communicate thoughts and feelings
How did i even get like this
Reflecting on personal development and wondering how the current state of being was reached
Why does everyone hate me
Feeling disliked by others
Everyone new i meet
Experiencing negativity from new people encountered
Either wants me dead in the end
Perceiving a lack of positive intentions from others, with thoughts of harm or manipulation
Or would rather play me
Suspecting that others may take advantage or deceive
How can i be loved
Questioning the possibility of being loved by others
If nobody here takes me seriously
Feeling a lack of seriousness and recognition from those around
How much can i take after i said enough
Considering personal limits and the breaking point in various aspects
At least there's some people who cherish me
Finding solace in the presence of a few who genuinely appreciate
Or are they're just there by force
Doubting the authenticity of some relationships
I always put myself in this remorse
Feeling regret and guilt for self-inflicted pain
How can i get real friends and try to focus on me
Desiring authentic friendships and self-focus
How can i get a girl without having to see them block me
Struggling with romantic relationships and the fear of rejection or isolation
Maybe i was never part of god's plans
Contemplating one's purpose and existence in the grand scheme
I'm surprised i never took the perks or the xans
Surprised by personal resilience, avoiding certain temptations
Always on the road because i need a distraction from the scene
Using constant movement as a distraction from life's challenges
If i had a chance to run away, i would just flee
Expressing a desire to escape from current circumstances
I really need some peace
Yearning for peace but struggling to break free from current difficulties
But i can't seem to have the courage to break free
Wanting to discover and be true to oneself but lacking the courage
I wanna know if i can finally do just me
Aspiring to focus on personal growth without succumbing to challenges
Focusing on myself without falling on my knees
Battling self-deception and striving for self-improvement
Keep lying to myself
Admitting to dishonesty and self-deception
I said that I wouldn't get better
Expressing doubt about personal improvement
I got a lot of issues in my life
Acknowledging numerous challenges in life
But i know i'll just keep my hand on the cheddar
Commitment to financial pursuits despite difficulties
But it just never seems to be complete
Feeling a sense of incompleteness in various aspects of life
I know i'm only just 18
Acknowledging youth but feeling a loss of time and experiences
But i felt like my whole life got taken from me
Expressing a sense of loss and missed opportunities
Missed out on so many opportunities
Regret for missing out on significant chances in life
Getting bored of the same thing real quick
Boredom and a quick disinterest in routine
If i never find a way to love things, i will never stick
Fear of not finding joy and passion, leading to a lack of commitment
To anything i do, maybe i'm just a fool
Doubting personal capabilities and commitment to endeavors
Losing myself to the power and ego inside of me
Losing oneself to inner struggles, power, and ego
Maybe its the fact that i just flew here
Feeling unwell, possibly due to recent experiences or choices
And i already feel sick
Expressing discontent with the current life situation
This lane that i'm in, really ain't it
Disliking the current path but determined to continue
But i'll keep on going, cause that's the only way
Commitment to moving forward despite challenges
Into the darkness, i'll just sit back and lay
Acceptance of the darkness in life and a passive approach
Until the light of day, i'll never probably see again
Hope for a better future but uncertainty about seeing the light again
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