Lyrics
When I look in my eyes
Reflecting on self, introspection
I can't see myself, can't believe myself (myself)
Struggling with self-identity and belief
I've been living this lie
Living a falsehood, not being true to oneself
Gotta free myself, gotta free myself (ooh whoa)
Desire to liberate oneself from constraints
Sorry if I'm being cautious
Apologizing for being cautious, guarded
Cut the check and then I'm off it
Money-driven actions, prioritizing financial gains
I been running through the days
Busy and active, possibly avoiding deeper issues
Only care if it's about a profit
Focusing on matters related to profit
Different bitches, different days
Engaging with various people romantically
Only care about em if they topless
Valuing physical appearance in relationships
I'm so tired of club hoppin'
Fatigued with the nightlife and party scene
And all these bottles I been poppin'
Excessive drinking and partying
For all these girls I don't care for
Indifference to certain romantic interests
They're just doing what they can (what they can)
Others doing their best despite circumstances
I did some things that don't make me no man (no man)
Regretful actions that question personal integrity
I need someone who can really understand
Desire for understanding from a significant other
They can't really understand me, no
Feeling misunderstood by others
When I look in my eyes
Reiterating the struggle with self-perception
I can't see myself, can't believe myself
Continuing to grapple with self-belief
I've been living this lie
Living a deceptive life, not being authentic
Gotta free myself, gotta free myself
Yearning for personal freedom and authenticity
Can't believe that's what I wanted (wanted)
Regretting past desires and choices
Another night, a broken promise
Unfulfilled promises and broken commitments
Put my poison in the water
Engaging in harmful behaviors or substances
I'm forgetting that's somebody's daughter (that's somebody's daughter)
Forgetting the humanity in others
Trynna be a better man
Striving to improve as a person
Soon enough my turn to be a father
Acknowledging the responsibility of parenthood
When it's time to pay for all my sins
Awareness of the consequences of past actions
I relapse on it again (again)
Repeating past mistakes despite awareness
I don't wanna runaway, away, no more
Rejecting the idea of running away from problems
I'm not trynna be the same, the same as before
Aspiring for personal growth and change
Soon as I learn from all my mistakes
Learning from mistakes but still making more
I make more, I make more
A cycle of making mistakes and repeating them
Look in my eyes
Revisiting the struggle with self-perception
I can't see myself, can't believe myself
Continuing the internal battle with self-belief
I've been living this lie
Persisting in living a deceptive life
Gotta free myself, can't believe myself
Expressing the urgency to break free from deception
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