Lyrics
I'm tired of trying to breathe
I feel exhausted from the effort to continue living
When you come around
Your presence has a significant impact on me
You're the reason why I'm hating how my music sounds
You are the cause of my dissatisfaction with my musical creations
This will be the death of me so bury me into the ground
This situation might lead to my demise, so let me be buried
I hope it's just a feeling but it's
I wish this negative emotion is temporary, but it persists
Always and always
Reiterating the enduring nature of the negative emotion
Like a puppet you're controlling me
Comparing the control exerted over the speaker to being manipulated like a puppet
I hope i'm always seventeen in your memories
Desiring to remain eternally young in the memories of the other person
You know that I'll never leave
Commitment to not abandoning the relationship
I don't know what is wrong with me
Expressing confusion or frustration about personal issues
I need some melatonin I can never fall asleep
Seeking a remedy for insomnia through melatonin
Always and always
Reiterating the enduring nature of the negative emotion
They're all transparent to me
Others are transparent, but understanding the person's thoughts is challenging
But I can never read your mind
Difficulty in deciphering the other person's thoughts
Just say that it's fine
Request for reassurance that everything is okay
I'm still wasting my time again
Continuing to invest time in something futile
I wish you were sitting right by my side
Desire for the person's physical presence
It's been a while since we last spoke
Acknowledging a lapse in communication
I'll tell you about the things that you want me to say
Willingness to say things the other person wants to hear
I'm wasting days after days
Expressing a sense of wasted time
You always blow me away
The other person consistently impresses or astonishes the speaker
I'm so out of place and it's so hard to find you
Feeling out of place and struggling to find the other person
Can you hear my heartbeat when you're pulling me closer
Wondering if the other person can sense the speaker's emotions
All I can think of is your four-leaf clover
Thoughts consumed by positive thoughts of the other person
So many times when I thought it was over
Reflecting on challenging times that seemed insurmountable
I just need some closure
Desiring closure in the relationship
(Your hair on my shoulders)
A sensory memory, possibly a comforting one
Will I save myself oh please
Questioning the possibility of self-preservation
You set this up for me
Feeling that the other person orchestrated the current situation
All that you do is just waste my dopamine
All actions by the other person deplete the speaker's happiness
Why do I hate November
Expressing dislike or negativity towards November
I need your answer
Seeking answers from the other person
You know I'll remember
Assurance that the speaker will remember the other person
Always and always
Reiterating the enduring nature of the negative emotion
Like a puppet you're controlling me
Reiterating the comparison of being controlled to a puppet
I hope I'm always seventeen in your memories
Desiring to be forever young in the other person's memories
You know that I'll never leave
Commitment to not abandoning the relationship
I don't know what is wrong with me
Expressing confusion or frustration about personal issues
I need some melatonin I can never fall asleep
Seeking a remedy for insomnia through melatonin
Always and always
Reiterating the enduring nature of the negative emotion
Like a puppet you're controlling me
Reiterating the comparison of being controlled to a puppet
I hope I'm always seventeen in your memories
Desiring to be forever young in the other person's memories
You know that I'll never leave
Commitment to not abandoning the relationship
I don't know what is wrong with me
Expressing confusion or frustration about personal issues
I need some melatonin I can never fall asleep
Seeking a remedy for insomnia through melatonin
Always and always
Reiterating the enduring nature of the negative emotion
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