Defenceless
Reclaiming Innocence: A Poetic Journey Through Pain and Redemption
Lyrics
Remember the innocence and safety of childhood
Reflecting on the innocence and safety experienced in childhood.
Remember when we were fearless and hopeful
Recalling a time when fearlessness and hopefulness defined one's outlook.
Let me go back to when I wasn't hurt
Expressing a desire to return to a state before experiencing pain.
let me go back to when I was alive
Longing to go back to a time when the speaker felt truly alive.
Now all I feel is fear and despair
Currently feeling overwhelmed by fear and despair.
Now all I need is to sleep forever
Expressing a strong desire for eternal rest through sleep.
How can I fight I thought I was strong
Questioning personal strength and ability to confront challenges.
How can I cope I guess I was wrong
Admitting to a sense of inadequacy in coping with difficulties.
And I've spent years building me walls
Describing the process of building emotional barriers over the years.
And I shed tears fixing my holes
Acknowledging the effort spent repairing emotional vulnerabilities.
I’ve let you in
Allowing someone into the speaker's emotional space.
I'm defenceless
Conveying vulnerability and lack of defense against emotional harm.
I'll let you win
Being open to the possibility of the other person winning emotionally.
Remember when you came and when you took my soul
Recalling a moment when someone took a significant part of the speaker's being.
Remember when I could barely walk and talk
Remembering a time of physical and verbal struggle.
Let me take back my dignity and control
Expressing a desire to reclaim lost dignity and control.
Let me take back my sanity my all
Seeking to regain a sense of mental stability and completeness.
Now I'm ashamed you're the one to blame
Feeling shame and assigning blame to a specific individual.
Now I will never be the same
Anticipating a permanent change in the speaker's identity due to the past events.
How can I fight I thought I was strong
Questioning personal strength and ability to confront challenges (repeated).
How can I cope I guess I was wrong
Admitting to a sense of inadequacy in coping with difficulties (repeated).
And I've spent years building me walls
Describing the process of building emotional barriers over the years (repeated).
And I shed tears fixing my holes
Acknowledging the effort spent repairing emotional vulnerabilities (repeated).
I’ve let you in
Allowing someone into the speaker's emotional space (repeated).
I'm defenceless
Conveying vulnerability and lack of defense against emotional harm (repeated).
I'll let you win
Being open to the possibility of the other person winning emotionally (repeated).
I guess wounds from the past
Acknowledging the enduring impact of past wounds that may not fully heal.
They never really heal
Suggesting that wounds from the past persist and affect one's well-being.
They wake you up at night
Describing how past traumas can interrupt one's peace during the night.
And you feel like you can't breathe
Expressing the suffocating feeling associated with unresolved past experiences.
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