Shellshock
Shell Shocked: Navigating the Haze of Self-Discovery in Anjali Asha's AnthemLyrics
I’m in the center of the room
I am at the center of attention in this private party.
At this private party
Enjoying myself at this exclusive event.
Havin’ good times
Having a great time.
And they eyes is on me
People are watching me.
Drownin’ out the logic
Ignoring rational thinking.
That’s deadweight
Ignoring something that is burdensome or holds no value.
Droppin’ reality on my plate
Being confronted with reality.
I’m tongue tied
Feeling unable to speak.
Like maybe I shouldn’t be so nice
Considering whether being too nice is appropriate.
Oh what if I cut ‘em off tonight?
Contemplating ending relationships tonight.
Drawin’ lines
Repeatedly drawing lines that are going to be crossed despite knowing it.
And lines
-And lines
-And lines
-And lines
-That I know I’m finna cross
Aware of impending boundary crossings.
I keep acting like I ain’t completely lost
Acting as if not completely lost.
Pop another like my brain ain’t what it cost
Consuming substances despite knowing their cost.
Done drank so much stomach up chuckin’ my thoughts
Drinking excessively leading to mental confusion.
I’m shell shocked
Feeling shell shocked and vulnerable, fearing consequences.
Took one to the head
-I’m shell shocked
-Jus another bad bet
-I’m so gone
-Can’t hear my breath
-Shell shocked
-Tellin’ me I might be next
-Shell shocked
Repeating the feeling of being overwhelmed and lost.
I’m so gone
-Both eyes wide open
Struggling to maintain composure and hide personal flaws.
Tryna act normal
-But I’m way too focused
-Maybe if I concentrate
-They won’t notice
-All my “goods” and “fines” is bogus
-I be chillin’ with the clouds
Desiring to escape reality and feeling disconnected.
I don’t plan on comin’ down
-I don’t get along with the ground
-Up here the world gotta sweeter sound
-Love to push my luck
Engaging in risky behavior without concern for its value.
Ain’t even a habit
-I think I’m in love
-With bein’ stupid
-Like half the shit I’m doin’ really something useless
-Just my redefine of a contribution
-I’m shell shocked
Reiterating the feeling of being shell shocked and at risk.
Took one to the head
-I’m shell shocked
-Jus another bad bet
-I’m so gone
-Can’t hear my breath
-Shell shocked
-Tellin’ me I might be next
-Shell shocked
Reiterating a state of being overwhelmed.
I’m so gone
-Figured I’d forget about it
Trying to forget worries until the next day, relying on substances.
‘Till the mornin’
-Make all the shit I’m stressin’ unimportant
-Won’t speak on it but you could keep on pourin’
-The haze will wear off in the morning
-I’m tongue tied
Struggling to articulate thoughts, experiencing blurry vision, and potential problems due to substance use.
Words ain’t comin’ to me when I call em’
-Visions blurry thinkin’ I mighta gotta problem
-Shell shocked the blast got me on one
-On one
Feeling affected by the aftermath of a shock.
On one
-Shell shocked
Repeating the feeling of being shell shocked and in danger.
Took one to the head
-I’m shell shocked
-Jus another bad bet
-I’m so gone
-Can’t hear my breath
-Shell shocked
-Tellin’ me I might be next
-Shell shocked
-I’m so gone
Feeling deeply disconnected and lost.
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