Lyrics
I've ignored and I've rejected
I've chosen to disregard and refuse
all their statements and their pleads
Ignored their statements and pleas
but I've been blamed and judged and tested
Blamed, judged, and tested by others
they have decided I am weak
They've concluded that I am weak
vows in vowels that they plant for hours and oh god
Vows expressed in words, planted for hours, suggesting a deep emotional impact
There’s a critic in my head
Internal self-criticism manifested as a critic in the speaker's head
Bad bad bad
Expressing disapproval or negativity
A corrector in my lap
A corrector in the speaker's lap, possibly symbolizing an external influence trying to correct
Bad bad bad
Continuation of disapproval or negativity
And the judge will grab my waist
Reference to a judgmental figure grabbing the speaker's waist
spin me dizzy, blind, and say
Spinning the speaker, causing confusion and blindness
Bad bad bad case
Declaring a bad case or situation
I have offered them my winnings
The speaker has offered their achievements to others
living lost under their thumb
Living a life controlled by external influence
they won't be gone
The influence won't disappear
If I just somehow could be faultless
Desire to be faultless to avoid judgment and loneliness
they'd swore I’d never feel alone
Assurance that being faultless would prevent loneliness
vows in vowels that they plant for hours and oh god they sound like me
Reiteration of vows in vowels, sounding like the speaker
there's a critic in my head
Reiteration of the critic in the speaker's head
bad bad bad
Reiteration of disapproval or negativity
a correcter in my lap
Reiteration of an external corrector
bad bad bad
Reiteration of disapproval or negativity
and the judge will grab my waist
Reiteration of the judgmental figure grabbing the speaker's waist
spin me dizzy, blind and say
Reiteration of the disorienting and blinding effect of judgment
bad bad bad case
Reiteration of declaring a bad case or situation
What if I tell myself something
Contemplation of self-talk and overcoming fear
something my fear has forgotten
Encouraging oneself to remember something forgotten by fear
forgotten when to not listen
Recalling when not to listen to negative influences
forgotten when to not listen
Reiteration of when not to listen, emphasizing the importance
there's a critic in my head
Reiteration of the critic in the speaker's head
bad bad bad
Reiteration of disapproval or negativity
a correcter in my lap
Reiteration of an external corrector
bad bad bad
Reiteration of disapproval or negativity
and the judge will grab my waist
Reiteration of the judgmental figure grabbing the speaker's waist
spin me dizzy, blind and say
Reiteration of the disorienting and blinding effect of judgment
bad bad bad case
Reiteration of declaring a bad case or situation
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