Lyrics
I don't wanna feel like that
I want to avoid feeling a certain way
Banging sticks at the park
Engaging in an activity, possibly a metaphorical reference to playing percussion at a park
It was twelve it was dark
Describing a specific time in the evening
And I can't hold a tune for shit
Expressing a lack of musical ability
I can try but I can't
Attempting but unable to do something
Simply can't tolerate it
Expressing an inability to tolerate a situation or feeling
I would look at you and you would shake your fist
Recalling a past situation of conflict or disagreement
I was lost in the market
Feeling lost in a busy environment
We would never talk about it
Avoiding discussions about a certain topic
I would look at you and it would all make sense
Reflecting on a time when things were clear and understandable
Now I don't know where I am
Expressing confusion about one's current location or emotional state
Everything changes before I can
Noticing rapid changes before they can be understood
These passing seasons
Referring to the changing seasons as a metaphor for life's transitions
Just gave you another reason to die
Suggesting that life events provide reasons to feel despair
You'd lose your shit
Describing an intense emotional reaction
And I'd smoke until I'm sick
Coping with emotions through smoking
I looked to you for answers
Seeking guidance or answers from someone
But it wasn't the right time
Acknowledging that the timing for seeking guidance was not right
It's too hard so caught up in life
Expressing difficulty in finding time amidst a busy life
To set some time
Highlighting the challenge of setting aside time for oneself
To set some time aside
Expressing a commitment to personal boundaries
I'll give you yours and I will always take mine
Balancing the give-and-take in a relationship
I wish you wanted it yourself
Expressing a desire for self-motivation in pursuing goals
But I can't speak for two
Unable to speak on behalf of someone else
I left someone behind
Leaving someone behind or letting go
There's an empty space meant for you
Noting a void or emptiness meant for a specific person
I don't wanna feel like that
Reiteration of not wanting to experience a certain feeling
Hole in my heart and it can't be mended
Describing an unhealable emotional wound
You'd lose your shit
Repeating the intense emotional reaction and coping mechanism
And I'd smoke until I'm sick
Continuation of using smoking as a coping mechanism
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