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I wish I could change, or at least lose some weight
Expressing a desire to change physically, possibly by losing weight.
Waking up, looking in the mirror
Starting the day by looking at oneself in the mirror.
Hair messed up, can't even see it clear
Describing disheveled hair, making it hard to see clearly.
My eyes all puffy, my back is aching
Physical discomfort—puffy eyes and back pain.
I can't even stop my legs from shaking
Feeling physically unstable or anxious, legs shaking uncontrollably.
Getting dressed though nothing seems right
Struggling to find suitable clothing despite efforts.
Skirt's too short my, jeans too tight
Feeling dissatisfaction with clothing choices; nothing seems right.
I swear those denims were fine last week
Reflecting on how clothes that fit before now feel too small.
But now they won't even fit over one buttcheek
Humorously expressing frustration that clothes no longer fit.
I wish I could change, or at least loose some weight
Reiterating the desire for physical change, specifically weight loss.
Why can't I love myself the way I should?
Repeated questioning of why self-love is challenging, comparing it to how others perceive and love the individual.
Why do I never see myself as good?
-Why can't I love myself the way you love me?
-Why can't I love myself the way I should?
-Why do I never see myself as good?
-Why can't I love myself the way you love me?
-First night out, don't even wanna go
Reluctance to attend an event due to feeling physically and emotionally unprepared.
My hair's too curly and my mood on the low
Feeling low emotionally, mentioning physical attributes like curly hair.
Trying to do my makeup but I won't get it right
Struggling to achieve desired appearance with makeup.
These shorts are too short and my top is too tight
Discomfort with clothing choices; feeling exposed or too constrained.
Wish that I could cancel my plans
Wishing to cancel plans due to self-consciousness.
Just wanna stay in bed and pretend that I'm dead
Expressing a desire to withdraw from social situations out of distress.
Don't even bother calling me, im drowning here in self-pity
Feeling overwhelmed by self-pity and isolation, not wanting to engage with others.
Just try it in a month or two then maybe I'll be down for you
Postponing plans, hinting at a future time when the individual might feel better.
I wish I could change, or at least lose some weight
Repeating the desire for physical change, particularly weight loss.
Why can't I love myself the way I should?
Repeating the questions about self-love and comparing personal perception to external love and acceptance.
Why do I never see myself as good?
-Why can't I love myself the way you love me?
-Why can't I love myself the way I should?
-Why do I never see myself as good?
-Why can't I love myself the way you love me?
-With all my insecurities?
Reflecting on personal insecurities amidst the ongoing struggle with self-love.
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