Thinner
Breaking Free: A Struggle with Self-Image and Acceptance
Lyrics
I wished I was thinner
The desire to be thinner is expressed.
So I skipped the whole dinner
The action of skipping a meal (dinner) due to this desire is described.
I prayed all night
Expressing a prayerful attitude, likely seeking resolution.
And hoped it would end up alright
Hoping for a positive outcome or resolution.
And I know I could've died
A realization of the potential danger or risk involved in this behavior.
But i still thought I was right
Despite the risk, feeling justified in the actions taken.
So I
The continuation of actions despite potential consequences.
Skipped another meal and put my clothes on
Repeating the action of skipping meals, followed by self-examination in the mirror.
Ran to the mirror and stared at myself way too long
Deeply scrutinizing one's appearance for an extended period.
I really didn't know who I wanted to be
Feeling uncertain about personal identity and goals.
All I knew is that I didn't want to eat
Having a clear aversion to eating, seeking an identity that avoids it.
I've never looked in the mirror
A lack of satisfaction with one's reflection in the mirror.
And saw what I wanted to
Not seeing the desired image or self-perception in the reflection.
It would've been better for me
Believing that having nothing visible in the reflection would be preferable.
If there was nothing to see
Expressing a desire for absence or emptiness in the reflection.
And I know I could've died
Reiteration of the potential fatal consequence of actions.
But I still thought I was right
Continued conviction in the justification of actions despite the risk.
So I
Repeating the cycle of skipping meals and self-examination in the mirror.
Skipped another meal and put my clothes on
Continuing the pattern of behavior.
Ran to the mirror and stared at myself way too long
Repeatedly scrutinizing one's appearance for a prolonged period.
I really didn't know who I wanted to be
Reiterating the uncertainty about personal identity.
All I knew is that I didn't want to eat
Emphasizing the avoidance of eating as a defining aspect of identity.
Is that I didn't want to eat
Repetition highlighting the aversion to eating.
Is that I didn't want to eat
Continued emphasis on the aversion to eating.
I really didn't know who I wanted to be
Reiteration of uncertainty about personal identity and goals.
All I knew is that I didn't want to eat
Reinforcing the avoidance of eating as a defining aspect of identity.
How many times did I say that I wanna stop
Expressing a desire or intention to stop this behavior.
But something in me said, that I'm not enough
An internal conflict between the desire to stop and feeling inadequate.
So I
Repeating the cycle of skipping meals and self-examination.
Skipped another meal and put my clothes on
Continuing the behavior pattern described.
Ran to the mirror and stared at myself way too long
Repeatedly examining oneself critically in the mirror.
I really didn't know who I wanted to be
Restating the uncertainty about personal identity.
All I knew is that I didn't want to eat
Emphasizing the aversion to eating as a defining aspect of identity.
Skipped another meal and put my clothes on
Repeating the cycle of behavior.
Ran to the mirror and stared at myself way too long
Continuing the prolonged self-examination pattern.
I really didn't know who I wanted to be
Reiteration of uncertainty about personal identity.
All I knew is that I didn't want to eat
Reaffirming the aversion to eating as a defining aspect of identity.
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