Lyrics
I am in pain
Expressing emotional distress or suffering
I am... the cursed one
Feeling marked or afflicted by a curse
Life is not what it was meant to be
Life isn’t aligning with intended expectations
What I didn't ask for has now turned my way
Unwanted circumstances have befallen
Somewhere in a garden it all turned wrong
At some point, things went astray or went wrong
Things I once believed in have now turned evil
Beliefs once trusted have turned malevolent or corrupted
Yet I pray, "Deliver me from evil"
Seeking deliverance from evil through prayer
But another spell pulled me away
Pulled away by another negative influence or force
Will suicide break the ring of curse
Questioning if ending one’s life will break a cycle of misfortune
Tomorrow I'll be gone, so don't look for me
Expressing the intention to be absent in the future
I am lying on my death-bed, with chaos in my mind
Feeling mentally chaotic while facing mortality
My life took more than it gave
Life was more depleting than fulfilling
Betrayed and deceived I will now pass away
Feeling betrayed and cheated, approaching death
And with the gun in my hand, my questions
Contemplating life’s unresolved questions while holding a gun
Are soon to be answered
Expecting imminent resolution or answers due to the impending act
Will suicide break the ring of cure...
Questioning if suicide can end a cycle of suffering
Satan and god, the thought passes my mind
Contemplating thoughts about opposing forces, good and evil
Heaven and hell, it's not up to me
Recognizing an absence of personal control over one’s final destination
If the Christians that I've seen
Doubting the representation of true faith based on observed Christians
Represent the true God of heaven
Skepticism about whether observed Christians represent a genuine divine entity
Then it's not a place that I want to be
Disinterest in being associated with a misrepresented divine entity
But if I'm blinded, please open my eyes
Pleading for clarity or revelation if blinded to certain truths
And help my now...
Seeking assistance or guidance at present
Will suicide break the ring of cure
Reiterating the question of whether suicide can end suffering
Tomorrow I'll be gone, then you'll be all alone
Reiterating the intention to be absent in the future, causing loneliness
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