Lyrics
I'm home tonight, been waiting up
I have returned home tonight and waited for someone.
One thousand miles, of chasing you
I've traveled a thousand miles chasing after you.
I'm home tonight, been waiting up
I'm still at home tonight, waiting patiently.
All the fallacy, my mentality fucked up
Deceptive beliefs and distorted thinking have affected my mental state negatively.
Agony, are you hearing this?
Is the pain I'm experiencing evident to you?
Since seventeen, the kids I'll never be
Since the age of seventeen, I feel like I've missed out on being a carefree youth.
Wasting all my time, now I'm ahead of me
I've wasted a lot of time, but now I'm focused on my future.
Out my door, look all the spaces taken up
Outside my door, all available spaces are occupied.
Anxious, oh, you got my legs still shaking
Anxiety still lingers, causing my legs to shake.
Oh my god, I feel like I don't stay enough
I feel like I haven't stayed in one place long enough.
Leave me alone, leave me alone
I need solitude, please leave me alone.
I'm home tonight, been waiting up
I'm back home tonight, waiting once again.
One thousand miles, of chasing you
I've traveled a thousand miles, pursuing you persistently.
I'm home tonight, been waiting up
I'm still at home tonight, waiting patiently.
I'm home tonight, I'm waiting up
I'm at home tonight, waiting for you to arrive.
One thousand miles, of chasing you
Continuing the pursuit, covering a thousand miles.
I'm home tonight, and I'm waiting up
I'm at home tonight, still waiting for you.
One thousand miles
A repetition emphasizing the distance of a thousand miles.
I'm home tonight, come home too
I'm home tonight, urging you to come home as well.
And mom don't wanna hear I'm depressed
Mom doesn't want to hear about my depression, given her busy work life and reliance on a paycheck instead of medication.
When she works so much, no pills, just a check, yeah
My struggles are concealed beneath my wrist and sleeve, still alive despite difficulties.
My wrist, my sleeve, cover me like a vest, shoot, still alive
A metaphorical covering like a vest protects me from harm.
Easier for me, I'm right there by the curfew
It's easier for me as I'm close to the curfew.
Look, no touch, a million warnings, one noodle on me
Cautionary signs surround me, but I still move forward cautiously.
And in case short of time, I'm racing inside
Racing against time, I'm heading inside.
Heart still numb, access denied (and you take, you take)
My heart is still numb, access to my emotions denied.
I'm home tonight, been waiting up
Back home tonight, waiting once more.
One thousand miles, of chasing you
Pursuing you persistently, covering a thousand miles.
I'm home tonight, been waiting up
Still at home tonight, patiently waiting.
Don't fill up my drink, whoa, I don't feel no ways, whoa
Don't refill my drink; I don't have any strong emotions.
Sometimes make it up if I climb too out my tumble
At times, I fabricate stories if I venture too far from my stability.
Don't fill up my drink, whoa, I don't feel no ways, whoa
Similar to line 35, emphasizing emotional detachment.
Sometimes make it up if I climb too out my tumble
Reiterating the tendency to invent stories when feeling unstable.
Leave me out
Expressing a desire to be excluded.
Leave me outside
Repeating the plea to be left outside, emphasizing isolation.
Leave me out
A repetition of the desire to be excluded.
Leave me out
Repeating the plea to be left outside, underscoring a sense of solitude.
Leave me outside
Reinforcing the desire to be left outside, possibly to cope with inner struggles.
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