Lyrics
so I lose my mind and lose my hold
Feeling like losing control mentally and emotionally.
nowhere to run to
Feeling trapped or without an escape.
low thought is heavy and i dont know
Heavy thoughts weighing down without knowing how to handle them.
where to run to
Still feeling trapped or without an escape route.
i start to move see it already happened
Realizing events have unfolded before realizing it.
you saw the red in my eyes
Others noticing stress or anger through redness in the eyes.
i take a bath and pocket of addies
Taking a bath and having a supply of Adderall pills in pocket.
i'm back with a ready supply
Returning with a readily available stash of Adderall.
such fun to be young and alive
Expressing the enjoyment of youth and being alive.
i saw the doctor when I was nine
Visiting a doctor at a young age, potentially due to emotional issues.
for all the anger
Seeking help for anger issues.
but i dont find the peace of mind
Despite seeking help, not finding peace of mind or answers.
or the answers
Continuing to feel uncertain and without answers.
i start to move see it already happened
Realizing events have unfolded before realizing it (repeated).
you saw the red in my eyes
Others noticing stress or anger through redness in the eyes (repeated).
i take a bath and pocket of addies
Taking a bath and having a supply of Adderall pills in pocket (repeated).
i'm back with a ready supply
Returning with a readily available stash of Adderall (repeated).
such fun to be young and alive
Expressing the enjoyment of youth and being alive (repeated).
oh my my
An expression of surprise or shock.
i lose my mind
Feeling like losing control mentally.
so hard to be this close
Feeling the difficulty of being emotionally close to someone.
so close
Emphasizing the struggle of being very close emotionally.
i start to move see it already happened
Realizing events have unfolded before realizing it (repeated).
you saw the red in my eyes
Others noticing stress or anger through redness in the eyes (repeated).
i take a moment alone in the bath
Taking a moment alone in the bath.
such fun to be young and alive
Expressing the enjoyment of youth and being alive (repeated).
i start to move
Realizing events have unfolded before realizing it (repeated).
(it already happened)
-i start to move
-(drawing a bath again)
Preparing to take a bath again.
i start to move
Preparing to take a bath again (repeated).
(i take an addie with a glass of gin i'm blacking out in the bath)
Taking an Adderall pill with a glass of gin and losing consciousness in the bath.
oh it's fun to be
Expressing the enjoyment of a particular moment (interrupted by anxiety).
(i'm anxious)
Feeling anxious.
anxious
Reiteration of feeling anxious.
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