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I go to bed so I don't think about what you said last night
I go to bed so I don't dwell on what you said last night
'Cause if I stay awake one more minute it'll consume my mind
If I stay awake, your words will dominate my thoughts
And I know you didn't mean for your words to linger around
You may not have intended, but your words linger in my mind
But I'm convinced that when a tree falls there is always a sound
I believe words, like a fallen tree, have an impact
Wish I could manifest a backbone in the nick of time
I wish I could find strength when needed
Then maybe I'd see some truth in saying everything's fine
If I were stronger, I might accept that everything is fine
But for now I'll just keep carrying on this way
Despite everything, I will continue in this manner
And maintain the mindset that tomorrow's a new day
I hold onto the belief that tomorrow is a fresh start
And every word I've ever heard has made a home in my heart
Every word I've heard has found a place in my heart
And every chance it gets it's pulling me back to the start
These words constantly pull me back to the beginning
They take form from yours and become my own
Words from you take shape and become part of me
And they're on repeat every single second I'm alone
These words replay every second I'm alone
I look in the mirror everything comes flooding back
Looking in the mirror triggers memories to flood back
It's engrained deep in my brain, constantly under attack
Memories are deeply ingrained and constantly troubling
And there's no way that I'm escaping what's been done
I can't escape the consequences of what has been done
I concede, I wave my white flag while you've only begun
I surrender, waving my white flag, while you continue
If only younger me had invested in thicker skin
If only I had been less sensitive in the past
She'd probably have set us forth in a better way to begin
A stronger past self might have guided us better
I believed in a world where words don't sharpen the blade
I believed in a world where words don't cause harm
But I've yet to live in one where my heart hasn't decayed
Yet, my heart has not found a world untouched by decay
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