Ptsd
Healing Through Rhymes: Trapps The Nomad Unveils the Depths of Personal Struggles
Lyrics
Im here to build
Expressing the intention to construct or create something.
This time for real
Emphasizing the sincerity and commitment to the current endeavor.
Had to disappear
Explaining the need to withdraw or take a break.
So I could finally heal
Highlighting the necessity of self-isolation for personal healing.
From all these scars that
Referring to emotional wounds inflicted by oneself.
Was caused by myself
Acknowledging personal responsibility for the scars.
Over years of traumatizing shit that
Describing a history of unaddressed traumatic experiences.
Wasnt really dealt with
Noting that the past traumas were not adequately handled.
Im sorry if I hurt you
Apologizing for any unintended harm caused to others.
Never my intentions
Clarifying that harm was not intentional.
Sometimes I went numb as a coping mechanism
Explaining the use of numbness as a coping mechanism.
PTSD everybody's suffering
Highlighting the widespread impact of PTSD.
Pen to the pad cuz it aids in my recovery
Expressing the therapeutic nature of writing as part of recovery.
With friends like these I could do without the enemies
Reflecting on the challenge of dealing with untrustworthy friends.
Cuz I gave them all of me
Regretting the investment of oneself in relationships.
They cast me to the side again
Feeling rejected and sidelined by others.
Claiming that the knew me but never really took an interest
Expressing frustration at others claiming to know but not understanding.
And never really listened unless it could benefit them
Criticizing those who only listen when it benefits them.
But if I speak up they gonna paint me as a villain
Awareness of potential vilification for speaking up.
Changing up my words so that they can play the victim
Anticipating distortion of words to portray the speaker as a villain.
Still I dont blame them i blame the system;
Attributing blame to the system and capitalism.
Capitalism in the land of narcissism
Commenting on the impact of capitalism in a narcissistic society.
Got that Envy rotting in your hearts just like a sickness
Describing envy as a corrosive force in people's hearts.
Let it fester to the point your thoughts become the venom
Warning about the consequences of letting envy fester.
Swear you battle demons but you're just too scared of the mirror
Calling out individuals who claim to battle demons but avoid self-reflection.
I can level with you cuz I too am so familiar
Relating to others by acknowledging personal familiarity with inner struggles.
With these doubts and self loathing
Expressing moments of self-doubt and self-loathing.
At times i feel hopeless
Acknowledging feelings of hopelessness at times.
Like if I took that leap now nobody would notice
Contemplating the idea of going unnoticed if taking a drastic step.
But I gotta keep my focus
Emphasizing the need to maintain focus despite challenges.
Even if its leadinqg nowhere
Admitting uncertainty about the direction of efforts.
Cuz I made that promise to you that i would always be here
Reaffirming a commitment to be present for someone.
And I meant that shit
Asserting the sincerity of previous promises.
Dont call me Christ but I swear upon this mic
Rejecting a messianic role but expressing dedication to making a positive impact.
That I would give my life if it could bring you the light
Pledging a significant sacrifice for the well-being of others.
Who am i?
Pondering the speaker's identity and struggles.
Just a man whos been emprisoned by his mind
Describing the feeling of being mentally imprisoned.
Taking time tryna find the things that make me feel alive
Searching for activities that bring joy and vitality.
Cycles on cycles this pain never fades
Highlighting the cyclical nature of pain and its persistence.
They will tell you they love you then lie to your face
Warning about deceptive expressions of love and trust.
I been down for a while but please make no mistake
Emphasizing resilience despite enduring hardships.
I aint never gone break
Asserting inner strength and determination not to break.
I know theres change on the way
Expressing optimism for positive change in the future.
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