Lyrics
I been high key wishing that my heart would stop
The speaker expresses a desire for their heart to stop, indicating a wish for relief or escape from emotional pain.
And my legs would buckle
Desire for physical collapse, possibly as a metaphor for emotional breakdown or surrender.
That in any time of need I would topple over and just pass away subtle
Expressing a willingness to pass away subtly during times of need, suggesting a preference for an escape from difficulties.
'Cause I don't wanna seem so weak asking friends for help
Reluctance to appear weak by seeking help from friends.
Then I ain't gonna be the confident and cocky funny guy I try to sell
Fear of losing the image of confidence and humor the speaker tries to portray.
If they see this variation of me then their mind is gonna melt
Concern about the impact on others if they witness a vulnerable side of the speaker.
Saying how'd it happen to the happy one?
Questioning why unhappiness has befallen someone who is usually perceived as happy.
How's it dark for the one who always brought the sun?
Expressing confusion about experiencing darkness when the speaker is accustomed to bringing joy.
Why's it all depressing for the one who made like every situation fun?
Wondering why the speaker, who made situations fun, now finds everything depressing.
Lots of questions on my suffering, I'm wondering like all the same shit
Reflecting on the many questions about suffering and seeking understanding.
Lots of pushing buttons anytime a person asks and I'm having trouble doing my explaining
Difficulty in explaining personal struggles when asked, possibly due to the complexity of emotions.
If you ever see me out in public please just shake my hand, take a picture with me
A request for simple gestures like a handshake and a photo, seeking connection and encouragement from others.
Tell me that I'm gonna make it through
Desire for reassurance and encouragement to overcome challenges.
Damn I hate the world like anytime I look at you
Expressing frustration and dislike towards the world, especially when looking at someone specific.
Put a mask on just to cause a smile but they wouldn't do the same for you
Wearing a metaphorical mask to appear happy while criticizing others for not doing the same.
This reflection is just weighing heavy on my conscience
The burden of self-reflection weighing heavily on the speaker's conscience.
People hitting up my phone but they ain't doing it to check up on me
Feeling neglected or misunderstood, as people contact the speaker without genuine concern.
All these bitches on some nonsense
Expressing frustration with insincere or nonsensical behavior from certain individuals.
Everyday I'm wishing that heart just pauses
Expressing a daily desire for a pause in emotional pain or suffering.
Let me get relief I'm always wanting
A continuous longing for relief from the emotional challenges that the speaker faces.
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