Lyrics
At least you can share when you're hurting
Expressing the desire for someone to share their pain openly.
I just bottle it up, don't wanna be a burden
Preferring to internalize emotions to avoid burdening others.
I hold it all in till I feel like I have to cut it out
Indicating a buildup of emotions that reaches a point of self-harm.
And I never wanna talk, no I just wanna shout
Preferring to express pain through shouting rather than talking.
I cry in the shower to drown out the sounds
Using the act of crying in the shower to mask vulnerability.
Of me gasping for air as I slowly drown
Metaphorically describing emotional suffocation and distress.
When I hurt you, I hurt me more
Acknowledging that causing harm to others also inflicts greater harm on oneself.
I never meant to, I don't know me anymore
Expressing a sense of self-disconnection and confusion.
When I blamed you like I did before
Reflecting on past blame towards others, realizing the impact on oneself.
I knew I hurt you, but I hurt me more
Acknowledging the realization that self-inflicted pain surpasses the pain caused to others.
I swear I'm going numb, I've lost all feeling
Describing a desensitized state, losing emotional responsiveness.
Trying so hard, still not healing
Struggling to heal despite putting in considerable effort.
I know that it seems that I've lost all empathy
Admitting a perceived lack of empathy due to personal struggles.
But just know it's cause I'm losing me
Explaining that the apparent lack of empathy is a result of losing one's own identity.
I write down my thoughts to get it all out
Using writing as a means to express and process inner thoughts.
But still I'm hurting, not sure what about
Expressing confusion about the source of ongoing emotional pain.
When I hurt you, I hurt me more
Reiterating the idea that hurting others simultaneously hurts oneself more.
I never meant to, I don't know me anymore
Repeating the sense of self-disconnection and uncertainty.
When I blamed you like I did before
Reflecting on past blaming behavior and its impact on self-awareness.
I knew I hurt you, but I hurt me more
Affirming the understanding that self-inflicted pain outweighs harm to others.
When I hurt you, I hurt me more
Reiterating the idea that causing pain to others intensifies personal suffering.
I never meant to, I don't know me anymore
Expressing continued self-disconnection and a sense of not recognizing oneself.
When I hurt you, I hurt me more
Highlighting the cyclical nature of hurting others and oneself.
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