Locked Up
Unlocking the Silent Struggle: Embracing Vulnerability in 'Locked Up'
Lyrics
I have intrusive thoughts like all of the time and
I frequently experience intrusive thoughts.
They never make sense gimme the Heimlich
These thoughts are confusing and distressing, like needing the Heimlich maneuver.
I think I'm choking on em maybe I'm spineless
Feeling like I may be spineless for not addressing these thoughts.
To never reach out, well inside I'm
Despite appearing composed externally, internally, I struggle to reach out.
Up and wired drinking all of this caffeine
Consuming excessive caffeine, feeling alert but exhausted without a routine.
I'm too tired, don't got a sense of a routine
Lacking a sense of structure and regularity in life.
Well it's made me lonely to be like the only one that's up at 3
Loneliness intensifies at 3 am, feeling like the only one awake.
And tho chemically I'm missing like a ton of shit
Despite chemical imbalances, dismissing and downplaying the significance.
I brush it off and tell myself: get over it
Brushing off emotional struggles with self-talk to overcome.
It can't be that hard, to rinse and restart
Believing that restarting and resetting life should be easy.
Just fake a smile, laugh, and repeat
Masking emotions with a fake smile, laughter, and repetition.
But it's hard to fake it in the this situation
Finding it challenging to fake emotions in certain situations.
I keep getting so caught up
Repeatedly getting entangled in overwhelming thoughts and emotions.
I need to get help or maybe some luck coz
Recognizing the need for help or luck to break free from intrusive thoughts.
I have intrusive thoughts like all of the time and
Reiterating the constant presence of intrusive thoughts.
They never make sense, gimme the Heimlich
Repeating the desire for a Heimlich maneuver for these senseless thoughts.
I think I'm choking on em, maybe I'm spineless
Speculating on being emotionally paralyzed and unable to ask for help.
To never reach out well inside I'm
Struggling internally despite maintaining an external façade.
Melting down till I'm trapped and I'm lonely
Feeling emotionally overwhelmed, trapped, and lonely.
But I don't really give a fuck if you know me I've
Indifference to whether others know about personal struggles.
Gotten this far, I get that it's not smart
Acknowledging risky choices made to reach this point.
To keep everything inside me locked up
Acknowledging the unwise act of keeping emotions locked up.
Been jaded for a while, isn't it obvious
Experiencing cynicism for a prolonged period, evident to others.
It's going out of style, can't fall coz the audience
Rejecting conformity as it goes out of style, unwilling to please the audience.
Would pick me apart, I'll stick with my heart
Preferring to stay true to personal values despite potential criticism.
Working at the end of the day
Working diligently at the end of the day to maintain authenticity.
So ill keep whispering the mantra under my breath,
Whispering a mantra to cope, avoiding deep analysis of others' opinions.
Won't look too deep into the things that they said
Resisting the temptation to delve too deeply into criticism.
Cause the feeling ain't mutual, i'd go to the funeral
Recognizing that not everyone reciprocates feelings or sentiments.
And pay my respects, coz chivalry isn't dead
Willing to pay respects despite challenges, emphasizing chivalry.
But it's hard to fake it in the this situation
Continuing to find it difficult to fake emotions in certain situations.
I keep getting so caught up
Repeatedly getting entangled in overwhelming thoughts and emotions.
I need to get help, or maybe some luck coz
Recognizing the need for help or luck to break free from intrusive thoughts.
I have intrusive thoughts like all of the time and
Reiterating the constant presence of intrusive thoughts.
They never make sense, gimme the Heimlich
Repeating the desire for a Heimlich maneuver for these senseless thoughts.
I think I'm choking on em maybe I'm spineless
Speculating on being emotionally paralyzed and unable to ask for help.
To never reach out, well inside I'm
Struggling internally despite maintaining an external façade.
Melting down till I'm trapped and I'm lonely
Feeling emotionally overwhelmed, trapped, and lonely.
But I don't really give a fuck if you know me I've
Indifference to whether others know about personal struggles.
Gotten this far, I get that it's not smart
Acknowledging risky choices made to reach this point.
To keep everything inside me locked up
Acknowledging the unwise act of keeping emotions locked up.
But everything inside me's locked up
Reiterating the internal struggle of keeping everything locked up.
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