Different Light
In the Shadows of Indifference: Avery Cochrane's Different Light
Lyrics
Bartender knows
The bartender is aware of the singer's presence.
I'm here alone
The singer is currently alone.
And I missed my train tonight
The singer missed their train, headed south to a town they struggle to pronounce.
Southbound to the town I didn't pronounce right
Reflecting on a failed attempt to pronounce the town's name.
You wanted my body but not my soul
Someone desired the singer physically but not emotionally.
Funny how indifference tastes a little like cherry wine
Indifference is compared to the taste of cherry wine, highlighting a bitter-sweet experience.
So I'll pretend I'm fine and drown it out tonight
The singer will pretend to be fine and drown out their feelings.
While my mind becomes a fire
Mentions the intense mental state the singer is in.
Maybe it's the way you didn't try to get me
Speculation about the reasons behind not being pursued.
And the way you didn't wanna kiss me but I can't let this go
The singer can't let go of the situation and seeks answers.
And I just gotta know
The singer wants to know the truth about the situation.
Did I get too drunk and fuck it up?
Reflecting on a past incident where the singer may have ruined things due to intoxication.
You know I tend to do that
Acknowledging a tendency to make mistakes when drunk.
But I wouldn't have stayed the night
The singer wouldn't have stayed overnight if they knew the consequences.
If I'd had known you'd start to see me
Regret about the decision to stay the night.
In a different light
The person sees the singer differently now.
Bartender knows
Reiterating the bartender's awareness of the singer's presence.
I'm far from home
The singer is far from home.
And I'm getting a little tired
Fatigue from pretending and faking emotions.
Of running 'round old beach towns and faking my smiles
The singer is tired of moving around and pretending to be happy.
Got so many stories I'll leave untold
The singer has untold stories.
Funny how potential thrives when the beholder is blind
Potential is acknowledged when the observer is blind to flaws.
No
Denial of problems or issues.
I'm fine
The singer claims to be fine despite inner turmoil.
I've become a fire
The singer's mind is compared to a fire, suggesting intensity.
Maybe it's the way I saw it as Nirvana
The singer recalls seeing a situation as ideal, possibly referring to a past mindset.
Maybe it's the way I'm stuck in California
The singer feels stuck in a particular place.
I can't let this go
The singer can't let go of the current situation and seeks understanding.
And I just gotta know
The desire for clarity and truth persists.
Did I say too much and fuck it up?
Reflecting on a past incident where the singer may have revealed too much.
You know I tend to do that
Acknowledging a tendency to say too much and create complications.
But no I wouldn't have stayed the night
The singer wouldn't have stayed overnight if they knew the consequences.
If I'd had known you'd start to see me
Regret about the decision to stay the night.
In a different light
Reiterating that the person sees the singer differently now.
Maybe it's the way you didn't feel the same and
Speculation about the reasons for the person's changed feelings.
Maybe it's the way that you're the one to blame
Suggesting the person is to blame for the changed perception.
Still I can't let this go
The singer can't let go of the situation despite knowing the cause.
But darling, now you know
Despite the pain, the singer wants the person to know they cared deeply.
I cared too much and fucked it up
Admitting to caring too much and making mistakes.
Because I tend to do that
Acknowledging a pattern of making mistakes due to excessive caring.
I'm forgetting your name tonight
Intention to forget the person's name as a form of detachment.
Cuz now I know you see me
Realization that the person now sees the singer differently.
In a different light
Reiteration of the changed perception in a different light.
Now I know you see me
Acknowledging the shift in how the person perceives the singer.
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