Shoulders
Navigating Self-Identity Struggles: Shoulders Unveils a Personal Journey
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I don't recognize myself
I'm undergoing a significant change and feel disconnected from my usual self.
It's surreal surely I'm thinking of somebody else
I find it hard to believe that this transformation is real; it feels like I'm considering someone else entirely.
I don't think I look like the front-woman of a band
I don't see myself resembling the lead singer of a band, despite occupying that role.
But that's where I am
Despite my disbelief, I am indeed in this position as the frontwoman of a band.
These people on my shoulders
I feel the burden of judgment and negativity from others weighing on me.
Don't have my best intentions in mind
The people around me are not supportive and may have ulterior motives.
I was just trying to get through the workday
I'm striving to navigate my workday without breaking down emotionally.
Without crying in the backroom
I'm attempting to avoid crying in private, specifically in the backroom.
You never thought I was trying my best
You never believed that I was giving my best effort.
I've never thought I was trying my best
I, too, have doubted whether I'm truly giving my best in various aspects of life.
Do you want to be in my movie
Are you only interested in understanding my experiences if they are portrayed in a film?
Is that the only way you'll see how you've affected me
Is filmmaking the sole way for you to grasp the impact you've had on me?
You never thought that I was trying my best
You've consistently underestimated my efforts and capabilities.
I'm losing the weight of hating my body
I'm letting go of the emotional burden of despising my body.
Shame or guilt or maybe I was ill
I'm grappling with feelings of shame, guilt, or perhaps an underlying illness.
So many red flags have me feeling unlucky
Many warning signs or indicators make me feel as if I'm unfortunate or facing challenges.
But that's where I've been
Despite the difficulties, this is where I find myself currently.
These people on my shoulders
The negative influences around me continue to impact my well-being.
Don't have my best interest in mind
The people around me don't genuinely care about what is best for me.
I was just trying to get through the party
I'm trying to navigate social situations without succumbing to emotional distress.
Without crying in the bathroom
I'm attempting to avoid crying privately, this time in the bathroom during a party.
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