Lyrics
When we were young and couldn't sleep
Reflecting on a youthful time when sleep was elusive
We'd start to talk and text for weeks
Communication and connection through talking and texting for extended periods
Now it's been years, we're getting old, we never speak
Years have passed, aging, and a lack of current communication
I'm getting out of my head
Feeling overwhelmed and consumed by mental health struggles
All of this anxiety, depression and emotion from the things that you said
Attributing anxiety, depression, and emotional turmoil to past interactions or words
And now I wonder why you don't want to be with me, said you'd rather be dead
Questioning why the person doesn't want to be together and mentioned preferring death
You told me I'd be fine, I should just live my life, cause one day it'll end
Advice received about living life positively despite its finite nature
So I try to pretend
Attempting to pretend or act as if everything is okay
When we were young and couldn't sleep
Recollection of youthful bonding through communication
We'd start to talk and text for weeks
Continued emphasis on past talking and texting
Now it's been years, we're getting old, we never speak
Highlighting the passage of time without current communication
I can't imagine how it happened
Unable to comprehend how things changed
The time flew by, my life was flashing
Life passing quickly, feeling like moments are fleeting
And I can't help to start to think it's cause of me
Self-blame for the perceived change or deterioration of the relationship
I wanna know how you've been
Desire to know about the other person's current life
I wanna call your phone, wanna send you a text, but I know you're with him
Wishing to contact but aware of the person's current relationship status
And it's been killing me that you're doing just fine, it's getting under my skin
Struggling emotionally because the other person seems to be doing well despite the situation
I wish I would've tried, I would give up my life just to do it again
Regretting not trying harder and wishing for a chance to change things
So I try to pretend
Trying to deceive oneself into believing things are okay
When we were young and couldn't sleep
Reiteration of past communication patterns
We'd start to talk and text for weeks
Continued emphasis on past talking and texting
Now it's been years, we're getting old, we never speak
Highlighting the passage of time without current communication
I can't imagine how it happened
Unable to comprehend how things changed
The time flew by, my life was flashing
Life passing quickly, feeling like moments are fleeting
And I can't help to start to think it's cause of me
Self-blame for the perceived change or deterioration of the relationship
When we were young and couldn't sleep
Recollection of youthful bonding through communication
We'd start to talk and text for weeks
Continued emphasis on past talking and texting
Now it's been years, we're getting old, we never speak
Highlighting the passage of time without current communication
I can't imagine how it happened, the time flew by, my life was flashing
Unable to comprehend how things changed
And I can't help to start to think it's cause of me
Self-blame for the perceived change or deterioration of the relationship
'Cause we were younger
Contrasting younger and older selves
And now we're older
Highlighting the passage of time
And I just wish we would've never said goodbye
Expressing regret for parting ways
I can't imagine how it happened
Unable to comprehend how things changed
The time flew by, my life was flashing
Life passing quickly, feeling like moments are fleeting
And I can't help to start to think it's cause of me
Self-blame for the perceived change or deterioration of the relationship
Because of me
Attributing the situation or outcome to oneself
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