Lyrics
I hate you for every single thing you ever did
Expressing strong dislike and resentment for every action the person has ever done.
I promised to stop writing songs about wanting to die
Committing to stop composing songs centered on thoughts of wanting to end one's life.
But you were in my dream last night
Notwithstanding the promise, the individual appeared in the dream, possibly indicating unresolved feelings.
It’s ok not to be alright
Assuring that it's acceptable to not feel okay despite societal expectations.
And I’m not alright
Admitting personal distress and acknowledging that they are not currently okay.
I may never be alright but that’s ok
Accepting the possibility of never fully recovering, yet finding peace with that realization.
Whoever said that time heals all wounds
Criticizing the common belief that time can heal all emotional wounds.
Clearly never met you
Asserting that the healing power of time doesn't apply to the impact caused by the person addressed.
Clearly never met you
Reiterating the previous line's sentiment, emphasizing the profound impact of the individual's actions.
I tried to forget all the times
Attempting to forget instances where the singer felt trapped and isolated.
I was locked up in my room
Recalling moments of seclusion and emotional distress in their room.
With you screaming on FaceTime
Recounting a specific instance of being confronted aggressively during a video call.
Cause I said hi to another guy
Connecting the confrontation to innocently greeting another person, possibly triggering conflict.
Maybe I got high
Suggesting substance use as a coping mechanism during a challenging period.
Could you blame me at the time
Questioning whether it's reasonable to blame the singer for seeking solace in substances at that time.
I was in love and afraid for my life
Expressing being in a fearful situation while in love, feeling threatened.
You made me afraid for my life
Attributing fear for personal safety to the actions of the addressed person.
I hate you for every single thing you ever did
Repeating the strong resentment for every action performed by the addressed person.
And for making me think that I deserved any of it
Blaming the addressed person for instilling the belief that the singer deserved mistreatment.
The day I came back to my room destroyed
Recounting a distressing event that left the singer emotionally shattered.
You locked me in the bathroom said 'your body is mine'
Detailing a moment of being controlled and manipulated, feeling trapped and owned.
I was just tryna find a way out
Expressing the desire to escape from the controlling situation.
I was just tryna find a way out
Repeating the desire to find a way out from the oppressive circumstances.
Love doesn’t mean getting hit
Asserting that love should never involve physical abuse.
Nobody deserves the shit that you did to me
Stating that nobody deserves the mistreatment endured.
I hate you for every single thing you ever did
Restating the intense dislike for all the actions performed by the addressed individual.
And for making me think that I deserved any of it
Reaffirming the blame placed on the addressed person for making the singer believe they deserved mistreatment.
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