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I ain't seen my mama in a little bit over a year
I haven't seen my mother in over a year
And even when I see her, I know she knows that it isn't me here
Even when I do see her, she can sense that I'm not truly present
'Cause I'm always in the clouds, somewhere up in space
I often feel disconnected, lost in my thoughts or emotions
I just hope that I could hug her before it gets way too late, late
I wish I could hug her soon before it's too late
My friends just looking for a call, they want to say hi
My friends hope to hear from me, wondering if I'm still myself
They wonder if the person they knew's still inside
They're unsure if the person they knew is still present within me
Seems so simple, it's really so hard
Simple things seem difficult for me
Ooh, I don't think I'm okay
I don't feel alright
Ooh, I don't think I'm okay, 'kay, hmm
I really don't feel alright
It feels so good to say
Admitting this feels relieving
I, I don't think I'm okay
I genuinely don't believe I'm alright
And that's okay
And that's acceptable
Time is moving faster, it isn't slowing down
Time is passing quickly and I can't keep up
I miss being a kid, I miss the way the thunder sounds, sounds
I miss the innocence and simplicity of childhood
Ooh, maybe it's my dream that killed my self-esteem
My aspirations might have affected how I perceive myself negatively
Got so good at being someone else
I became adept at pretending to be someone else
Maybe I lost myself
Perhaps I've lost my true identity
In the search of your acceptance
I've been seeking approval and validation from others
But when they're looking for a call, they want to say hi
My friends still hope to reconnect with who I used to be
They wonder if the person they knew's still inside
They're uncertain if the old me is still within
Seems so simple, it's really so hard
Simple things remain challenging for me
I don't want nobody to see my ugly heart
I'm afraid of revealing my inner struggles to others
To see my ugly scars
I fear exposing my emotional wounds
Ooh, I don't think I'm okay
I'm not feeling okay
Ooh, I don't think I'm okay, 'kay, hmm
Really, I'm not feeling okay
It feels so good to say
Expressing this brings some relief
I, I don't think I'm okay
I truly don't believe I'm doing well
And that's okay
But acknowledging this is acceptable
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