Lyrics
Remember the time you said son it'll be alright
Expressing a memory of reassurance from a parental figure during a difficult time.
Remember the time you said son it will be just fine
Reiterating a memory of encouragement and support from a parent.
Well I'm waiting for the day that my mind says it's had enough
Waiting for a day when the mind signals it has endured enough pain or struggle.
And I pray that day comes soon so I can finally feel loved
Expressing a desire for release from suffering and longing for love.
I just wanna feel loved
Expressing a fundamental need for love and emotional connection.
Remember the time I said god I'm ready to die
Recalling a time of extreme emotional distress and a readiness to face death.
Remember the time I said god just take my life
Repeating a plea for a higher power to take away the speaker's life.
Remember the time that I cried every single night
Recalling a period of intense emotional pain, marked by nightly crying.
And every thing about myself was out of spice
Describing a self-perception marked by a lack of positive qualities or attributes.
Sick joke, sick joke, that's all I'll ever be to anyone
Acknowledging a self-deprecating view, labeling oneself as a sick joke to others.
Sick joke, sick joke, that's all you'll ever be to anyone
Reinforcing the perception of being viewed as a sick joke by others.
I'm nothing but sick and disgusting
Summarizing a self-perception of being nothing more than sick and disgusting.
I'm nothing but sick and disgusting
Repeating the self-deprecating sentiment of being sick and disgusting.
God I don't know if I'll ever be ready to die
Expressing uncertainty about being ready to face death.
God I'm too much of a coward to give you my life
Acknowledging a sense of cowardice in being unwilling to surrender life.
And I know that I'm still gonna cry every single night
Anticipating continued emotional pain and nightly tears despite the internal struggle.
But if you want me I'm gonna stay here
Committing to fight and endure, suggesting a desire for divine approval and guidance.
and fight till you say son your heart is mine
Desiring acknowledgment from a higher power, seeking validation for the speaker's heart.
Dad I don't wanna be sick and disgusting
Expressing a strong aversion to being perceived as sick and disgusting.
Daddy I don't wanna be sick and disgusting
Repeating the rejection of the label "sick and disgusting," directed towards a father figure.
Dad I don't wanna be sick and disgusting
Continuing the plea to avoid being labeled as sick and disgusting, directed towards a father.
Dad I don't wanna be sick and disgusting
Reiterating the rejection of the undesirable self-image towards a paternal figure.
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