Eternal Disorder
Eternal Disarray: Battling Inner Demons
Lyrics
(Yuh)
Exclamation or sound indicating affirmation or emphasis
(Aye)
-No rest
Expressing a state of continuous activity without pause
Till I
Continuation until a particular objective is achieved
Empty out the malice in my veins
Removing or purging the ill will or spite in one's bloodstream
Plagued
Afflicted or burdened
Pull the covers off the feelings I detain
Revealing and exposing suppressed emotions
Drained
Depleted or exhausted
From the gutter where my body was unchained
From a deprived or desolate place where freedom was regained
Wishin' I could find the right path
Desiring to discover the correct life path
Lord forgive me for this last dash
Requesting forgiveness for an impending final action
Burn all of the yellow brick road
Destroying all symbols of hope or guidance
Let it fizzle with the souls on the coals I'm a
Become a corrupt entity amid the tormented
Rotten motherfucker with my feet in the mud
Presenting as a corrupted individual entrenched in difficulties
I got no seat up at the table so I'm scraping the crumbs they wanna
Excluded from mainstream acceptance and scavenging for remnants
Find the reason why I'm gone in the mirror but when I
Searching for reasons for disappearance but appearing when unobserved
Step into the fog then they see me reappear
Unable to disclose personal truths or intimacies
Can't afford to tell you my secrets
Unable to trust or share with morally corrupt individuals
Can't confide with y'all heathens
Destroying lives without purpose or significance
Wreck ya life without meaning
Planning a defensive action before entering a space
Better point a ruger forty-five at the door 'fore I creep in
(Yuh)
Exclamation or sound indicating affirmation or emphasis
(Aye)
Rescuing oneself from a grave situation
Pick me out of cemetery rose I'm a
Feeling abandoned or without direction
Lost
Cause
-Should've known from all the writing on the wall
Realization after ignoring warning signs
Crossed
Betrayed or harmed by one's own negative traits
By the part of me that feeds on all my flaws, could've
Could have resisted but succumbed to past influences
Been the one to fight back but I
Possibility of standing up against adversity
Can't shake what's in the past
Unable to rid oneself of past experiences
Seems every time I try my
Every attempt to progress leads to failure and exclusion
Ladder starts to break and I'm rejected from the climb I'm
Constantly abandoning previous identities and being rejected
Shedding this skin yuh
Discarding old identities or personas
Freeing these sins aye
Redeeming oneself from past wrongdoings
Leaving my home yuh
Leaving behind a familiar place or state
Shoutout to the chemicals killin' me slowly
Acknowledging the detrimental impact of substances
I just wanna be a parasite yuh
Desiring to depend on others for survival
Latch up on a host and sink my teeth releasing venom so I
Desiring to leech off others for sustenance
Never have to worry about control
Avoiding responsibility and control
Multiply and spread contagion from my growth bitch I
Spreading negativity and corruption through growth
Run for the money
Engaging in pursuits for financial gain
Finesse for the sport
Mastering skills for personal gain or advantage
Creep till the sun up
Operating in the shadows until daylight
Get 'em on their knees and make 'em beg for the lord I don't
Subjugating others to one's will and dominance
Fuck with y'all bitch I'm fed up
Rejecting association with others due to frustration
Switchin' up like the weather aye
Displaying erratic behavior similar to changing weather
Tell your boy about my setup
Informing someone about a personal arrangement
Catch the smoke from the chrome of my beretta
Referencing a weapon for self-protection or intimidation
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